Panic worse than it's ever been what's wrong with me please help

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dani_cali
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   Posted 7/9/2009 3:01 PM (GMT -7)   
cry   hi i am new to this board. i am 42 years of age, mum to a boy aged 5, and going through a nasty divorce which has dragged on for the past 17 months with little progress though I did manage to get sole residency of my son, thank god. (my ex was abusive).
 
since my twenties, i have suffered anxiety and panic attacks. in my twenties, i was convinced something was wrong with my heart as it was palpitations and flutterings that drove me crazy and scared me to tears. after having been tested for any heart defects, docs decided it was anxiety/depression/panic. they gave me xanax which at first worked brilliantly.
 
anyway, jump ahead twenty years. i have kept myself fit. i go to the gym at least 4 times a week and i try to take care of myself. and for many years, i was on top of these anxiety attacks. i cut out caffeine, took exercise, got good sleep, took magnesium tablets which helped with the palps, did whatever i could.
 
now, the panic/anxiety has stuck its giant talons in me again, only this time its far worse. gone are the palpitations. now, i go around feeling very very weak, as if i am about to pass out, and this is far scarier than any heart palp ive had.
 
i dont feel in control. i cannot even tolerate exercise anymore most of the time as halfway through it, or even just minutes into a workout, i feel like im gonna drop dead or at least black out.
 
i dont feel right. im having blood work done. ive had two borderline smears in six months and having a coloscopy done next week which will hopefully rule out anything physical.
 
if it is just anxiety or panic, or even depression, then its severe, and i need the right meds for it. i still take xanax, but it does not stop that feeling like i am gonna pass out. i think ive built up a tolerance for it but scared to increase the dose.
 
i am afraid every day. i hate this. my head is clogged, that body weakness is awful and very scary and i just need to get back on top of this monster and manage it again.
 
it was like it was in 'remission' for years, then BAM has come back in a big way as ive been under enormous stress past 17 months (my ex was extremely vindictive and made false allegations that i threatened to harm our son among other allegations none of which are true but which caused me terrible distress).
 
i feel like i have 'battle fatigue' or post traumatic stress from this whole ordeal.
 
my ex was a headworker, his abuse was psychological and maybe the six years with him and the aftermath of leaving him and currently being poor and in limbo whilst i await financial relief, maybe thats what this is all about? i have also had to go through all of this alone without family for moral support, as my family all live abroad. i think its taken its toll, whether or not this turns out to be physical or purely mental.
 
have any of you experienced this kind of abnormal fatigue and weakness that scared you cos you dont understand it? i mean, i feel so weak that i fear driving for fear i will pass out at the wheel.
 
had bloodwork done a few months ago, came back normal, so anemia or diabetes symptoms is probably ruled out. my only physical worry really is the borderline smears which are probably also caused from too much stress.
 
any input appreciated, thanks x

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   Posted 7/9/2009 3:54 PM (GMT -7)   
My anxiety will make me physically ill and very weak. In fact, I felt so weak I too would feel like I was going to pass out. I would make an appt with your doc, sounds like a daily medication would be beneficial for you right now. I know the stress that divorce and all the fighting can cause, after my divorce in the early 90's I too had to add a anti-depressant. Good luck and do keep us posted on how you are doing. You are not alone.

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gentleman k
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   Posted 7/9/2009 5:14 PM (GMT -7)   
It sounds like your anxiety has turned into full blown depression which is not unusual. That's exactly what happened to me and I was feeling very much the way you have been feeling. You need to see the dr. With all that you have been going through, I'm not surprised that you are feeling this way. My dr. put me on Paxil  for anxiety and depression and I am doing much better and am once again enjoying life. There is hope for you. Keep us posted on how you are doing and welcome to healingwell.com. Good luck!

gentleman k

Post Edited (gentleman k) : 7/9/2009 9:19:48 PM (GMT-6)


nellebutter
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   Posted 7/9/2009 5:23 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm sorry that you are going through such a hard time right now. It will get better I haven't personally experienced those feeling ,but I have seen where a few people on here have. Also I have a friend whose anxiety causes these symptoms too. I think its good that you are getting your doc to run tests to rule out anything else. I always do that too. Just hang in there.

Nelle
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Poet Barbie
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   Posted 7/9/2009 7:34 PM (GMT -7)   
dani-cali ,

I have the same symptoms as you...I will literally almost pass out when I am in public places and I have the same feeling when I am behind the wheel. I am actually looking for help also with this problem. It makes me feel like a fool out in public because Im scared of humiliation if i would pass out. So when you find the right help and it works...please share info with me! Should I suggest xanex to a new doctor? Thnx.

-Poet Barbie

Aries8
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   Posted 7/10/2009 11:08 PM (GMT -7)   
I think being checked out by the doc is an excellent idea. It's probably nothing to worry about. Make sure you're getting enough rest and eating right. I wouldn't exercise until an answer is found. I have felt very tired but weakness doesn't come to mind. Let us know what happens and hang in there!
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dani_cali
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   Posted 7/12/2009 10:24 AM (GMT -7)   
gentleman k, how do you know when it goes from anxiety to full blown depression? what are the differences cos im not sure if  you or someone else could please explain this to me, thanks

Aries8
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   Posted 7/12/2009 11:00 AM (GMT -7)   
Anxiety can understandably turn into depression. With all the symptoms and people around us not supportive, it's easy. Anxiety and depression are often two separate issues. I'm not an expert but this is what I've read and experienced. The symptoms of depression can be:
 
Feeling sad, anxious, or hopeless much of the time, and these feelings do not go away.
You've lost interest in many of the things you once enjoyed-hobbies, work, time with friends and family.
 
There may also be a change in your sleep and/or eating patterns, weight gain or loss.
Trouble concentrating.
You feel worthless or guilty for no reason and think about death a lot.
 
Often people who are depressed need counseling. If you don't have a therapist that you see, it might be a good idea if you found one. You will feel better!
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
 
60 mg. Prozac, Ativan as needed.
 
"Education is not the filling of a pail, but the lighting of a fire."


gentleman k
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   Posted 7/12/2009 6:54 PM (GMT -7)   
Dani_cali
From what I experienced depression usually sets in following anxiety and panic attacks that come and go. When one is truly depressed he usually remains in a constant state of feeling sad,loss of control,clogged head,sense of insecurity,loss of appetite,feeling of being all alone,and lack of motivation. These feelings do not want to go away and counseling and medications are often required. That's what I had to do and thanks to Paxil for my depression and am doing much better. You will feel much better if you can see a therapist. I had no choice if I was to get better. Good luck and hope you start feeling better. Depression can be controlled with proper medication.

gentleman k

bojalaisgirl
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   Posted 7/12/2009 7:38 PM (GMT -7)   
  I just wanted to say hello and tell you how much I identified with your story. My anxiety/panic started after 4 deaths in 3 weeks the last my mom. I was only 32 and had lost my dad only a 1 1/2 before. My marriage was incredibly abusuve in every way and got worse after my mom died. The panic attacks started about 4 months after she died and my marriage was horrible and esculating. The short of the story.... I left, anxiety got worse for a time until divorce was over and I got more settled. It is soooo difficult to go through without family but I found I had great friends that became my family and things stabalized. My anxiety went away after a time and came back last year when my world turned unside down again and lots of changes happened. They went away for a few months again and kicked up when my brother recently died. I guess for me the unsettledness and loss are my triggers. All I can say is keep your chin up do what you believe is the right thing. Dont fall into his traps and in time things will settle and you will feel the joys of your new life. Take care and good luck!
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