I am sorry your mind is on full speed and you are obessing but do try to turn off the "stinking thinkin". With some hard work and believing in yourself you can do this.
When your fears have the best of you, it is easy to feel that things will not get any better. This is not true. There is much help available in today’s society and the best way to deal with your fears is to find effective ways to overcome them. Instead of focusing on doom, stay in the moment. Give yourself breathing space. Consider what matters to you. Establish a few manageable goals, then take small steps toward achieving them.
Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations,and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.
Here is the linnk for the MoodGYM
You do have to sign up as a new member. I think once you get into the program you will find it very helpful.
I wish you peace,
Wishing you the best, Kitt
Hang in there! are you in therapy at the moment? its great to keep the benzos as a backup, if you can cope without them thats great, but remember help is out there if you need it!