I can relate. I just started a new med and my Xanax use is increasing while I am waiting for Buspar to kick in. I can already tell it is working a bit and not making me sick like AD's do but I am playing the waiting game right now and trying to hang in. The plan was that the Buspar would greatly reduce anxiety therefore I would be able to lower and then ween off Xanax, not there yet. I have been on Xanax a long time and we are starting to think it is increasing depression. so, we shall see. some days I feel better than I have in a long time and other days I feel I can barely make it through.
Hope things get better for you soon, me too!