Trapped- but not letting it win

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Mazfire
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   Posted 8/15/2009 6:41 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi guys, those of you who know me are aware that i suffer from agoraphobia as well as OCD on top of the panic disorder. I work full time and my comfort zone is about 3 hours north, south, east, west from my home. any further and i freak out. (especially if there are crowds!)
 
Anyway a close friend just rang very last minute to invite me to a birthday afternoon tea tomorrow- super short notice and i hate having to drive somewhere i havent been before. It also can take me hours to pick an outfit- thats where my compulsion kicks in and i can become quite obsessive. This is also largely due to my Zoloft related weight gain & the self loathing i have for my body.
 
I thought about not going as i am still unwell with a pretty harsh sinus infection & bronchitis-  but then decided that if i dont go, im letting my irrational fears win.
 
Ive been going out socially more and more- parties, dinners, weddings- you name it, i make myself go, as i am an extrovert and many people are not even aware i have an issue being away from my hometown.
 
So the point is, im going tomorrow, and i will enjoy myself. Im 29 and refuse to live as a recluse (which is tempting- cos of the Fibro etc, i spend alot of time in bed) but to hell with it. My friend will only be turning 30 once.
 
Lets challenge our fears, and take back some control of our lives!
Much love to you all,
 
Maz XX
 Co-Moderator Anxiety & Panic- Depression
 
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
-DX:Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Sinusitis, TMJ, Endometriosis,PCOS, Reactive Arthritis, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, OCD, Seasonal Mood Disorder. GERD, IBS.
-Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Prescription pain meds/anti inflammatories.
-Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
-Age:29. AP first DX @ 10. Fibro etc DX @14.
 
 


spinnaker
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   Posted 8/15/2009 7:44 AM (GMT -7)   
Amen! Go for it! The more we do without high anxiety the more we will be able to do without high anxiety. If that makes sense?
Have a very very good time! For all of us!
Peace to you!
Spinnaker

Nanners
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   Posted 8/15/2009 8:47 AM (GMT -7)   
Yes I say go for it too. Just take your Xanax with you just in case, but I think you will do fine. We tend to freak ourselves out alot, but when we push thru it, we usually end up having a good time. Have fun!!
Gail*Nanners* Co-Moderator for Crohns Disease and Anxiety/Panic Forum
Been living with Crohn's Disease for 33 years. Currently on Asacol, Prilosec, Estrace, Prinivil, Diltiazem, Percoset prn for pain, Zofran, Phenergan, Probiotics, Calcium  w/Vit D, and Xanax as needed for my anxiety.  Resections in 2002 and 2005. Also diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, and Anxiety. Currently my Crohns is in remission, but my joints are going crazy!
*Every tomorrow has two handles.  We can take hold of it by the handle of anxiety, or by the handle of faith"*

stkitt
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   Posted 8/17/2009 6:10 AM (GMT -7)   

Maz,

Kudos to  you for deciding to go to the  party.  I know last minute invites throw me too as I start to feel anxious.  I like a lot of lead time when going to a Social Event so I can get in the right mind set.

I am proud of you for making the decision to just do it.

yeah    yeah     yeah     yeah      yeah     yeah

Big Hugs to you Maz !

Kitt


Minicooper
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Date Joined Aug 2009
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   Posted 8/17/2009 12:58 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm proud of you! It takes alot of courage to step outside our comfort zones!
Minicooper
 
MEDS
Celexa 20mg--once a day
Desyrel 50mg--once a day
Nexium 40mg--once a day
Naproxen 550mg--2 times a day
Inderal 10mg--2 times a day 
 
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BlessedByTheBest
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Date Joined Jul 2009
Total Posts : 33
   Posted 8/17/2009 2:40 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Maz,
 
I admire this post very much...we should always try to push through our anxiety issues. I am soooo trying to do this RIGHT NOW!
 
Hope you had a GREAT time!
 
ChiGirl

Mazfire
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Date Joined Oct 2008
Total Posts : 1683
   Posted 8/17/2009 5:15 PM (GMT -7)   

Thankyou all, i had a lovely time. I have to force myself to take back control of my life, even if its as simple as a birthday lunch with friends. I have 4 weddings before december and a couple of rock concerts in huge stadiums, so im working my way there step by step.

Much positive love to you all,

Maz XX


 Co-Moderator Anxiety & Panic- Depression
 
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
-DX:Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Sinusitis, TMJ, Endometriosis,PCOS, Reactive Arthritis, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, OCD, Seasonal Mood Disorder. GERD, IBS.
-Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Prescription pain meds/anti inflammatories.
-Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
-Age:29. AP first DX @ 10. Fibro etc DX @14.
 
 


stkitt
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Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 8/18/2009 3:38 AM (GMT -7)   

Rock On Maz and enjoy your accomplishments !

yeah   yeah    yeah   yeah    yeah    yeah

Hugs

Kitt


Aries8
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   Posted 8/18/2009 2:05 PM (GMT -7)   
Maz, the absolute best way of beating agoraphobia is going to places that make u feel uncomfortable. Congrats to you! You should be proud of yourself. Also, I have a question. You are always suffering from sinus problems/lung issues. Have doctors tested you for any allergies? Just a thought. I hate the thought of u suffering like this over and over. You must be tired. Hang in there, Maz!
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
 
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"Education is not the filling of a pail, but the lighting of a fire."

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