Never lose hope in dealing with your fears and anxiety. Notice your feelings, figure out what's real, ask 'so what?, make it bigger than life and walk through it.
Count on us to help you through and know we do care for all of our great members.
I wish you peace,
I asked some of the other moderators and they admitted your disorder is very rare but came up with a couple of site that may help you:
Just click on links
We are all here to support you through this high anxiety time in your life. You may email me anytime you like if there is something I can do for you.
I feel so bad to know you are going through all of this.