I had to laugh about the tattoo part "because I have none of either" that was too funny. You sound like one anxiety ridden person. I am, was, still am, trying not to be. The right meds make a big difference and I got to the point of "so what, if they make me feel better and improve the quality of my life, so be it." Money and relationships are a funny thing. It is always best to be honest with your spouse, on the other hand, if you make your own money and help with household support, don't you have a right to handle your own finances? Fine line there. Guilt is an awful emtion, if it is bothering you that bad, lay it all out on the table and be done with it. Mark Twain said on his death bed "Most of the things I worried about in life, never materialized." Try and de-stress, I know it is easier said than done........worried about the flu? Worrying and anxiety reduces your immune system, making you more suspectible, so stop worrying about it, OK? And next week you can give me a lecture on what I am worrying about for no good reason. ha ha
Hope today finds you better...hang in there
Hello and glad to hear you are doing better today. The medication increase seems to have helped along with realizing that you may have what Gail explained is what is known as Anticipatory Anxiety.
Do try to stay in the moment and not worry about tomorrow as it is not yet here and yesterday is gone so the only moment we really have is right now.
Take care and stick with us, we are here to support.
Good morning and I am so sorry you are feeling so awful.
I am like you and seem to be very sensitive to the medications and I have tried many. Right now I am using Trazodone 100mg at bedtime and Buspar 15 mg twice daily. I also have Valium to use as needed.
It is always difficult to come up with the right combo of meds that works for each person but please do not give up. Talk with your Doctor and explain how you are feeling.
Take care and keep on talking with us.