hey guyss and i am new and scared, I hope this forum can help me

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bellabug99
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   Posted 10/17/2009 6:47 AM (GMT -7)   
okay guys heres my story , its prettyyy roughh , I know it might scare some others but In order for me to feel better I have to let my story out. I am twenty five years old, I just turnd twenty five a few weeks ago , at twenty three I was in a serious realtionship it was emotionally and mentally exhusting. After it was ended I went int o a serious depression , I developed insomia, than from that I developed the fear that I was never going to sleep again and I was going to go crazy and look gross and I thought i was gonna spend my life in the mental hospital. I had scary thoughs, thoughts images , I left my job, and than I ended up  ............In the mental hospital the things is I never did do anything crazy, I asked my mom to put me in their because no therapist worked ,( i tried two), Than when I finally went there i thought i was going to stay there forever, Until I met my therpist and we do congitvie therpahy for 2 days but it worked, which was insane because I really was going crazy I couldnt even think straight, I felt like my mind was in a blur, like i was never going to come out of it, and honestly im suprised I did!.I remember when I was finally able to think straight, I felt stupid , and I wish someone just told me I was having majoy aniexty, thats what led to my nervous breakdown. I remember leaving the mental hopsital and having one of the pyshsist tell me my mind was playing a trick on me , lol how comforting is that!
 
 
...butt heres my problem ,Now I think its gonna to happen again, I was loosing sleep because of work, so it just remind me of what happend to me before, maybe i have post tramtic stress, because everytime something little happens like that im remind of that period of time, than I think im gonna go crazy again so than i start going crazy, what if im turning bipolar, or schiz, I even think so far as look what happen to micheal jackson, or keith ledger they had stress and than look what happend to them, Even when i see stuff in the news I wonder if thats going to hapen to me , Im a nervous wreck and I hate thing feeling, I was in college until a week ago when they dropped my classes, but i work and a baby sitter, and im good at both of my jobs,
 
I have no insurance for theraphy, I just dont understand this, what if i am going crazy, because thinking of things like this are crazy , what if i go to a therpaist and she dosent wanna tell me im crazy , maybe i watch to much movies. I dunno sorry im just really anxious and scared. and have tons of headaches !
 
I am new to this, but Please any feedback will def help <3

Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 10/17/2009 8:05:15 AM (GMT-6)


stkitt
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   Posted 10/17/2009 7:17 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello and welcome to HealingWell and the A & P Forum.
 
With your long history of issues I really feel it would be to your benefit to seek out professional advice.  I will try to give you a bit of info but please do remember that I am not a professional. :-)
From reading your post it feels to me like you have what is known as anticipatory anxiety as one component of your mental health issues.

Anticipatory anxiety is the anxiety one experiences before starting a challenging activity. Most often, anticipatory anxiety is a lot higher than what you actually end up experiencing.

Why do we experience anticipatory anxiety? I think it’s because the panic response is over-zealous about doing its job: trying to locate any danger, in order to protect us. When it can’t find any danger in the present, it looks into the future. Sometimes, the only possible “danger” it can find is something you haven't done yet!

You are stuck in the "what ifs".  Your worrying about what may happen, I.E. "never sleep again", "I think its gonna to happen again".  These are examples about anticipating the worse case scenario.

CBT therapy is extremely helpful for this kind of thinking.  There is a free online program that you can work from home on your computer on your own time.

I will post the link for the free site here:

the Mood GYM :

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

Again a wwarm welcome to HealingWell,

Kitt

 

 


 

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Panike
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   Posted 10/21/2009 8:15 PM (GMT -7)   
HI bella hope you are feeling better! Sounds like what kitt told you is right. Alot of what anxiety is about is the fear of the unknown and the what if's. That's the main reason why i haven't traveled in 6 years because every time i think about traveling i anticipate all the things that could happen and like Kitt said the anticipation is often made out to be bigger than the actual experience. I'll think what if i die of an anxiety attack while i'm on the highway. Or what if i get stuck in a traffic jam for hours. And most likely none of that will happen but i've already anticipated the worst case scenario and that is exactly what you are doing.When i'm having a panic attack i feel just like what you said like i'm going crazy! But actually i'm not and nor are you. I hate to sound like your therapist but actually that is what it is our minds are playing tricks on us.

warmfuzzies
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   Posted 10/21/2009 9:06 PM (GMT -7)   
  
   Hi BellaBug:
 
   I am proud of you for just keeping on keeping on...one foot in front of the other. It is so hard when our mind seems to work against us.
 
   Don't think too much about "the big picture" all the time...some days just getting from morning to evening is enough.
 
   I also know several people who were really helped by meditation. It isnt new age at all, it just is a way to quiet the mind. I am sure you could find some info on the internet.
 
   Also very helpful is regular exercise...even very MODERATE amounts do wonders for stress, plus usually during the time you are actually working out, you can focus your mind away from the horrible thoughts.  I do exercise videos at home, which I love, and it's great if leaving the house is sometimes a problem. Most public libraries have at least a few exercise videos available.
 
   Has your Mom been helpful during this latest bout of anxiety?
 
   I hope this helps a little. Reply when you have time      wink

stkitt
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   Posted 10/22/2009 4:08 AM (GMT -7)   
Good Morning and Welcome to HealingWell and the A & P Forum.  If you havenot already done so you may want to start a thread of your own so all the members here in the A & P community may have the chance to get to know a bit about you.
We love new members and I am so glad you found us.
 
Again, a warm welcome,
 
Kitt
 

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Green Grove
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   Posted 10/22/2009 7:25 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi bellabug99 & warmfuzzies,

Just wanted to extend a warm welcome to HW and our A/P Forum. Looks to me like you both received really good advice from some of our great members :)

Take care and stick with us!
***Sam***
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"Life be not so short but that there is always time for courtesy."
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Please consult your doctor before making changes to meds or lifestyle.


bellabug99
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Date Joined Oct 2009
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   Posted 10/22/2009 10:04 PM (GMT -7)   
hey guys thanks so much for replying , I feel so much better knowing that i can come on here and talk to you guys, I dont wanna tell my mom because what we went through before was so tough on my family and i cant do that to them ,especially my mom. Im really scared right now, I was doing fine, I was reading a book called panic to power, and it helped a whole lot, but than I thought about religon, and pyschology and which one is real, and than i creeped myself out, i know it sounds crazy it is crazy!

When I was going through a really bad stage in my life, It was the fear of me going crazy and hurting people and was also very deperessed, , I told people how i felt, and there was this one lady my moms friend, who kept saying me thoughts and nightmares were not god thoughts, that they were the devils thought. I know it sounds sick and scary, but i actully believed this! and its what brought me down and I ended up in the pysch ward , until I had one therpist i worked for , for two days, she explained to me that we control our own mind and that some people are religous thats why they believe that. for some reason what she said to me made sense, and I was fine. I came out of the hopsital two days later , and was doing great for two years!

but now that my anxiety came back I keep thining that that lady said to me , about god this and all that, Im not relgious, but i do believe in god, but everytime im told to pray i get anxious or anything that is said about religon i get really scared.

Is this normal, Im scared this is gonna happen all over again, cause as of right now it is, im so confused. Im just really honestly scared. I have no insurance to even see any therpist, Im scared im gonna be one of those people who believe the DeV*l is coming after them, I hate the word , i hate even mentioning that. It sounds crazy and im sure you guys are gonna read this and think maybe i got problems, but i dont know what else to do. is there free anxiety lines that i can call when im feeling like this . i just dont know what to do .

Thank you so much , I just feel like im gonna be unstable all my life

warmfuzzies
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   Posted 10/24/2009 12:34 AM (GMT -7)   
   
 
    HI BellaBug:
 
 
    I think there is something you should remember:  You went thru this before, but you CAME OUT OF IT, and were fine for a really long time. And you were able to let yourself be helped by your therapist.
You can feel better again.
 
    I went online and put in Anxiety Help Online, and you should get a few good sites to come up. Also check your phonebook...I would think there must be some help you can get for free...maybe even call your local hospital and ask.
 
   Do you still live near the place you got therapy before?
 
    You are a good person, or you wouldnt be worried about scaring your Mom, and you are not crazy, only struggling.
 

warmfuzzies
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Date Joined Oct 2009
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   Posted 10/24/2009 12:44 AM (GMT -7)   

 

   Hi again BellaBug:

  If you go to  the Healingwell Chat subject of depression, it starts with Depression Resources. There are alot of 800 #'s listed...you should maybe look there...there is a lot of overlap between anxiety and depression smilewinkgrin

 

  

 

 

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