Hello and welcome to the Anxiety and Panic Forum.
Have you seen a psychologist about this? It sounds like there are a lot of maladaptive thought processes going on that need 'ironing out'. I dont think changing the situation is going to help you at the moment, but rather changing how you see it.
I sense that you have been troubled for some time and hope that when you are home for Thanksgiving you do see your Physician to see if there is anything physical going on with you. If not then please do consider getting into therapy of some sort.
Stick with us and know we care.
~~ Kitt ~~
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