Don't ever feel bad about having to use medicine to help you deal with things. If you could get to a point where you didn't need it, that would be wonderful, of course, but if you don't, that's life! I have been on ADs for over 15 years for my anxiety. I used to be on xanax but was able to get off of it. The main thing is to not get addicted. I have found that Taurine is a great help to me. Many of my friends have been helped by it after I told them about it and they tried it. Please consider it if you will. Go to this link to see: http://www.thewayup.com/newsletters/011500.htm
I take Taurine everyday and it has helped a lot, especially since I don't have a script for xanax or klonipin any longer. The taurine is available at health stores/vitamin shops. It is cheap too! It is safe and also good for the heart!
Take care of yourself and let me know what you think!