Hi, I am sorry you are going through this- it sounds like you have become a bit agoraphobic- in my teen years after I was finally diagnosed with Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia and OCD I didnt leave my room for 3 months. No school- they sent work home for me to do. I simply could not face the outside world. So I sympathise with you.
If it was me, Id take the meds. They are the thing that helped get me back on track and now help me maintain a 'normal' life. Im on 150mgs Zoloft and 4mgs Xanax. Yes its a big dose, but it works wonders for me. Your doc wouldnt have prescribed those meds unless he/she thought you needed them and that they were safe for you to take-
Please hang in there, we are here for you-
Xanax is an anti- anxiety med. Its relaxing and calming. Ive not experienced full blown derealization so I cant comment on that, but I know that without my Xanax I simply would still be stuck in my house, trapped by my irrational fears. Meds and therapy have helped me go to university, get 2 degrees and have a career. This would not have happened if Id not taken the meds.
Im hoping someone who has experience with derealization will reply to you- is it the same as de-personalisation?
Dont be sorry, its all good! Hang in there and keep us posted. Its quieter here on weekends, so it may take longer for others to respond, but they will. Also im the only AP Moderator in a different timezone- (Australia) so Im on at different times. I am sure people will offer you good advice, I hope you stay with us- welcome to HW!