I went to workout just now and I felt more anxiety during and for a few minutes afterwards. I think the only reason was because I had like 5 panic attacks last night and was very weak today. Anyways I got really dizzy and my hearing was tunneling in and out a little bit, so my anxiety went up.
Currently I'm feeling pretty relaxed and relieved from working out now that my body is cooling down. Perhaps I should try lighter workouts, but it seems weird to need to do that because I always do a decently vigorous workout every other day. Also my anxiety has done a complete 180 with its symptoms in a way. I used to oversleep and my anxiety was worse in the mornings, then better in the evening.
Now I undersleep because I'm afraid to sleep and my axiety is ridiculous at night. I also have been randomly crying because I hate having the anxiety haunting me all the time. The crying seems like it relieves stress for a while but I'm beginning to become very depressed about my anxiety and the toll its having on my life.
I am going back to the doctor tmrw so I'm going to discuss these things with him and see what he has to say, but I was hoping perhaps someone would have some input to make tonight a bit easier to relax. :] I've also had fatigue, dizziness, and am sort of disoriented. I have a fear of hallucinating too so as the world kind of seems to be spinning a bit it seems like my depth perception changes too.
I think that mainly has to do with the fact that I am just focusing TOO much on my environment, almost like I am attempting to scare myself. But I feel as if hallucinations might start occuring! I have a BIG fear of mind altering drugs/meds and whatnot and I believe it plays in a role of my fear of hallucinations which leads to my obsessive thoughts about schizophrenia.
I assume medications and or therapy is going to help me to overcome this and am actually quite optimistic about getting my life back in order. If anyone has more advice I would love to hear it :] As if all of you haven't given me a substantial amount of advice already, lol!
Thanks so much God Bless!