Well, "freaking out" may be a bit strong, but if I'm not careful that's how it will end up. I fear contagious diseases, and something is going on here.
It's my throat. It's sore, but not sore like it may get with strep throat or allergies. It's not even the throat...I'm not sure why I'm saying that. Throat is fine. It's the neck that's not fine. It's all sore and stuff.
I hear you're supposed to look for swollen lymph nodes to see if you're getting sick. Well, I don't know if they're swollen or not. I don't know what they normally feel like. It's not like I go around jabbing at my throat all the time so I have no point of reference here.
It's been going on all day today and all day yesterday. I do not present a fever, though my anxiety is currently trying to make me think I have a fever. But it cannot be anxiety causing this with my neck.
Anyway, I figure it's one of three things:
1. I'm getting some kind of infection.
2. I cleaned my loft from top to bottom on Friday and dealt with lots of dust and chemicals (more than usual -- I did a "deep clean"), and perhaps that's what is causing it. Some kind of irritation.
3. I have slept very poorly since I guess Wednesday night.
I do not like to bother the nurses, but I have no insurance and my friend who is a doctor is in Europe on vacation. And she's an OBGYN anyway. So if you nurses could tell me which is more likely (of 1 and 2 or perhaps whatever else), that would help my psychological state right now. I'm not looking for medical advice or a diagnosis. Let's call it words of wisdom or something like that.
I've done a pretty good job not letting this get to me for the better part of the last two days, but now it's starting to get to me.
Incidentally, sometimes it kind of comes and goes if that means anything. Since it has started it's been there always, but at times it's a lot less noticeable than others. It's mainly sort of both sides of my larynx, and above it I guess. Those are the main places. And when it gets better or worse, it's not one side at a time or anything. The whole thing just sort of goes with the same flow.