I used to think I would never get my confidence back driving everywhere. I then started noticing a trend. If I was sick with a cold or really mad the anxiety would not happen becuase I was in a frame of mind that was more important than my fear. So I realized I just needed to take an 'I don't care' attitude.
Now I'm not always looking for that escape but instead I drive in that crowded area and tell myself "bring it on...I just don't care anymore...I'm staying relaxed no matter what because I'm tired of this ruling me."
I used to dread getting stuck in a middle turn lane of a crowded intersection. If things tooks too long I would panic. I would adjust the mirrors, call someone, whatever to distract myself until the light changed, if it didn't change soon enough I would feel like leaving my car and running. Since I couon't do that I would panic.
Now I sit there and relax (I focus on every muscle being relaxed and my breathing deep on slow and my eyes staring or moving slow). Instead of tensing up I make it a point to let go even more.
UC diagnosed in 1985
Flares usually occur after some illness: food poisoning, flu, mono
Flares last 1/2 to 1 1/5 yrs and are severe with lots of blood, pain and fever
Remissions last 1 to 4 years and are absolute with no symptoms
Current Meds: 100 mg azathioprine, Colazal, Lialda,
60 mg 50 mg prednisone
Xanax, Valium for anxiety
Tegretol XR for epilespy
Prednisone got me a college degree, job, marriage and kids