Your mind starts racing and worrying about things that aren't in your control, you tell yourself to stop and it works, then you just wind up sitting there staring off into nowhere not thinking of anything, then you start worrying about the fact that you're spacing and a zombie, then you start worrying about why you feel that way, you tell yourself to stop and it all starts all over again.
People tell you to start looking at other people who are worse off for you, and it's not that you don't feel bad for them, you do. But instead of making you feel as if you're in a good situation, it gives you the impression that everyone is all messed up and life is overall pretty darn miserable. So the coping method really doesn't seem to deliver the right message, just gets you right back to where you started.
And last but not least you're so consumed by all these emotions and feelings that you're mind is completely exhausted. What have you done your whole life before this when you've been tired? You lie down and go to sleep, fat chance. You lie down in your bed and try to sleep off the exhaustion and worries but only wind up staring down the ceiling or the clock and time doesn't seem to move. You get up and find something to do, not something you really want to do, only something you need to do to hopefully get yourself tired enough to eventually be able to go to sleep.
This is the cycle I'm living, this is what I need to change, but it just seems like big ass giant circle and I keep getting back to where I started. Where's the reset button so I can go back 2 months and not deal with this crap?
brought the cbt thread up for you to go thru see each response yourself i feel it is the best.........let me know k ...lyn
Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 11/28/2009 2:46:08 PM (GMT-7)
kitt mentioned trazadone i 4got about that it works 4 me stops mind from stinking thinking.......