I'm glad you all responded. Kitt--yes I do know that it (may) involve all those things...but they're never SURE. I know when i describe some things that I feel, my doc is just like **huh??** and tries to say it in a way she knows, starting with "so sort of like xyz is making abc do 123?" And I say, "well, no." So she bases what she gives me on what she thinks it is or interprets it as, and I never feel she understands what I'm saying.
I have no family history of anything that I know of. I just got lucky...
And events may have done something but there was no even just prior to when all this initially started in 1991. My dad has always gotten on my nerves b/c he is a yeller and has a terrible temper but no specific event happened. I just started feeling weird.
And if it's JUST an eviron. factor, then there's a better chance of you getting off the meds b/c it's not some random thing in your brain that started freaking out, which you can't control. That's not the case w/me so I may never get off it. If it is a chemical thing that happened out of nowhere, then that problem will be there as soon as the meds stop, theoretically.
And my doc doesn't really know of alternative therepies...it's like that doesn't count, which pisses me off to no end. I called an alt. medical doc and a first session is OVER $500...I think not. Doctors should read up on that b/c I think much of it is legit, and saving me $500. Also, you never know what alt. doc to go to or if they're just ripping you off.
And bee, I dont know what i can change. I feel like if I succeed in getting my mind off what is happening, it just masks it, not helps it. As soon as you finish doing the task that gets your mind off it, the feelings come back, making it seem that changing things yourself has nothing to do with it.