I do not remember what or if you are on medications but perhaps you should talk to your physician about
a mood stablizer med as you seem to have a lot of spinning thoughts. I feel that same way often and I cannot decide what to do and my mind keeps going around and around like a merry-go round until I finally do nothing. I then start to feel upset and frustrated because I cannot settle on one thing.
I use the computer way to much to keep the spinning thoughts away.
I do make a list of daily chores I need to accomplish and I also find if someone is working with me things go better as I do not feel so lonely.
Also do review our resources above and you will find links to self help online programs that are free. The CBT online program is the]http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome
I hope you will look into our resources. Take care and stick with us. Kitt