I just need to talk. Don't really know what to say though. Feeling so sad right now. Feeling overwhelmed. I know God never gives us more than we can handle but I feel like my plate is TOO full right now and my anxiety and sadness are growing by the minute. I'm having shoulder surgery next Friday. I'm worried about my job as there is no work and they can't keep all of us. But, worst of all, my Mom and Dad's cat (and, he's kinda mine as well, as I would move into their house to take care of him when they go out of town and he's always been partial to me and Mom over anyone else) is dying. He had lost a lot of weight and Mom took him to the vet last week and the vet felt tumors on his spleen and liver. It is so sad to go over to Mom and Dad's and watch him (the vet said he is not in any pain). He isn't eating and just drinking water. I'm just feeling overwhelmed with grief. My Mom and I love this cat sooooo much and it is just heart-wrenching. I can't do anything for him or Mom and I want to "make things all better" but can't. Jan. 8 is the date of my surgery and also come as a reminder from Mom that that is the day a few years ago when she had to put her other cat to sleep and now Bandit (our cat) (whom I call "Bits) is dying. I'm just sitting here trying not to cry and wondering what I can do and knowing there is nothing I can do. My anxiety has been high for weeks about the upcoming surgery and now the cat dying and stuff just all seems like to much right now. I just needed to vent I guess and talk to you all.
LET US BE GRATEFUL TO PEOPLE WHO MAKE US HAPPY.
THEY ARE THE CHARMING GARDENERS WHO MAKE OUR SOULS BLOSSOM.
Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002. Medications: Allegra, Zantac, Xanax, Darvocet.