Between the major depression and the non-stop anxiety and panic attacks from all the stress that I have continuously been under for the past nine months, I'm ready to just collapse. Between dealing with 3 lawyers for 2 different suits, extreme anger at ex-husband for kicking me around legally while I am down, trying to sell my house in foreclosure, dealing with older daughters IEP and PPT issues at school that have now led to behavioral and emotional issues- I am so tired and drained. I feel like I have absolutely nothing
left to give!
Tomorrow (or actually Today) in about 9 1/2 hours a real estate agent is bringing potential buyers through my house for a second showing. They first came around Thanksgiving time. I am staying up all night to thoroughly clean my house. My children and my dog are in bed sleeping. I tried cleaning earlier but I had to help my younger daughter with her homework and then had a repair man in the house to fix my basement door that wasn't opening. Also, I have a 600+ foot driveway which is on a hill with a curvy incline -- so I had the plow man here around 8:00 pm to clean up my driveway and drop lots of sand and salt. I don't want to scare the potential buyers away.
Okay..here is where you should take out your violins: my back is aching, my Gerd is killing me and I have a headache. This is besides the ten ton bricks that I feel like i have in my stomach from nerves. (and yes I am on meds and at high doses too) Besides that I want to curl up and just cry right now. I feel so alone and I am tired of having to handle all these things on my own.
Last, I just read that we are supposed to have a snow storm/rain in the next few hours. So much for the $40.00 I just spent on having my driveway cleaned up. And now I am going to have to shovel my walkway and driveway in the morning if we do have anything that accumulates - Before I go to work for my temp job.
Okay. Maybe I'll let myself rest on my bed for 1/2 hour. But that'll be about it. Thanks for listening to me whine. I've really been holding it all in for a very long time now. (Let's hope nobody is around me when I have the real meltdown!)