I just wanted to say that I feel terrible for what everyone is going through, but in a sense, it makes me feel better to know that I am not alone, specially since with anxiety you feel so alone and in dispair. I Don't know the extent of my anxiety, but I get constant thoughts of " what if...what if....." and I just don't like it. They come and go now and then, and today even knowing that I have a cold, the slightest tingle in my head places my heart at full alert, and it takes me a while to relax. I dislike the feeling of dispair and have tried " non-prescription" methods and I guess I have come to consider taking anti-deppresants.
To tell you a bit about myself, I am 31 yearls old, have been unemployed for one year due to the economic recession which severly hit the oil and gas industry, but I have been upgrading courses , being busy and social. I got recently engaged to a wonderful woman and we have our entire life together to look forward to. But recenlty an old enemy has shown up, way stronger than before. I have woken up severl times in the previous months with my heart at full speed and with that dreadfull feeling of a panic attack. Every little bad feeling and my mind starts its " what if..what if" loop which drives me crazy. It begun in 2005 with several panic attacks, but it lay dormant until now, and I know I am under a lot of stress, but I don't want this feeling anymore. I am seriously considering going on anti depressants, but I dont want to be dependant on them, but then I don't want to feel like I feel right now.
I guess I just want to people who are going through what I am going through and hopefully we can find ways to help eachother.
As I mentioned I am new here, and I am hoping to talk with as many of you as possible so I can better understand this horrible feeling that dwells in me and hopefully I can find a solution. I wont ask " how can I get cured?", becasue deep down under all that anxiety, I know that the only person that can control the feeling its me, but it is soooo much easier said than done.
I look forward in sharing with you guys and hopefully we can all work this out together :)