Hi.........i am new here.
My anxiety started in December 2009, after I had a miscarriage in November 2009. Ever since, I've had anxiety and it has gotten worse. I get it every other day if I am lucky..but usually it's everyday. I've only had a total of 3 MAJOR attacks, where I thought I was truthfully going to pass out and lose it. But everyday I do get attacks. Then after my miscarriage, I lose mybest friend because she tells me "F U, at least when I have a baby I won't have a miscarriage."
Right now I have Lorazapem, which is the only reason I can even ever calm down. Though I've only taken it 3 times, in the past 2 weeks since I was given it. Im NOT a fan of medicines because I hate feeling weird, or disoriented and I truthfully only take it when needed. I am only 19 years young...and this anxiety is ruining my life.
I've gotten it at the mall, grocery stores, at home, at work, in other public places, driving, etc. It's everywhere....I can't get rid of it. Some weeks are better than others though
My first psychiatrist appointment isn't til March 1st, but im having a hard time hanging in until then. I have a very loving boyfriend, and he doesnt understand what i am going thru, and agrees also that I am not the same person!! ALL i ever wanna do is sleep it sucks.
I think that I am stressed out, yet I don't feel it!!! I think i can't even realize what I am stressing out about
This post may be a little long and all over...i took the lorazapem not too long ago might be why. I dont know is there any hope out there? The doctor said she thinks its post traumatic stress (miscarriage) and that it shouldnt be permanent but im going crazy here