It seems that I'm playing a game of chicken with life.
I knowingly make decisions that are clearly detrimental to my success (especially academic) in the long run. A perfect scenario: I wake up early for a class/lab where attendance is imperative for performance, but I simply do not go. I know and understand the consequences, but it's as if there is some awful mechanism inside of me that would rather have me fail than make actual effort and face the world (and all the anxieties it holds). And so I heed this, and points go flying off my grade, over and over.
I've noticed a trend, when my anxiety levels are low (social anxiety mostly), I coast along and enjoy my ride through life... But when anxiety creeps up, I take on a lot of depressive characteristics.
Does anyone have any tips to revert my depressive responses and get myself back on track when things like this occur?