Posted by live strong on 3/19/2010 @ 4:45 PM
Hi my name is Erika and I came across this wondeful amazing site today while seaching on the web while laying on my bed. i read alot of the posts on anxiety and fear it had been driving crazy i thought i was loosing it and must admit i cried and cried while reading the posts I could not believe there are other people out there that have had the same experience like me you know anxiety and fear of going crazy. I have been having this fear for years on and off, it all started over something very scary and traumatizing i seen on tv a woman went crazy and hurt her child. soon after i had giving birth to my daughter. it was disturbing and it really fraked me out and i obsessed about
it and constantly thought about
what i saw. thats how my anxiety began i began fearing i would go crazy and be put in a ward and loose my family and cause them worrie and pain to my mother. this terrified me deeply. I had never known anyone or heard of anyone being afraid of going crazy so you can imagine that made it worst because i though i was loosing it. also my brother who i was very close with got diagnosed with bipolar a couple of years ago and i became terrefied that i will get it too. ever since then i been scared of watching horror movies and scary images and have been experiencing bad anxiety and fear. but after i read the posts on this site and crying LOL;) i feel SOOOOO much better and i understand that fear gets the best of me and i get to feeling all this anxiety and scary thoughts of scary things. I am 23 years old and i have schduled an appoinmet to see a therapist to help me eliminate my fears and anxiety. Anxiey and fear sucks and i dont ever wish that on no one not even my worst enemy(which i dont have) it feels like you've gone crazy and you are scared and horrified about
everything and on high alert
. what I have learned from this experience is to NOT WASTE LIFE LIVING LIKE THIS BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT REALLY BEING ALL U CAN BE WHEN YOU PERMIT THIS FEELINGS TO CONTROL YOU. I love my brother dearly and my family so much and i am sadden that my brother has biopolar i would give anything to cure him and cure everyone that suffers from anxiety and fear bcause is really bad to live that way. if anyone reads this i hope it helps someone like the other posts have helped me today i feel cured because i undestand were my fear was coming from. and i wont let it control my life anymore I have permited this silly foolish thoughts to enter my mind and disturb my peace. and you shouldnt either. just be honest with yourself and believe in god or whatever you deeply believe in and know that this too shall pass just like all the great philosophers say. keep possitive always and believe in yourself . Live strong!!! God bless.
Post Edited (stkitt) : 3/22/2010 7:42:44 AM (GMT-6)