Hi everyone! I'm 22 years old and here is my basic story.
I've had anxiety for about
two years now. I started taking zoloft for a few months in the beginning, but stopped after one refill because I'm afraid (go figure) of being dependent on medicine. Plus it didn't really help and I don't want to go through trials of medications to find "the right one for me."
My anxiety hasn't been too bad until recently. It's been kind of extreme and I don't know why. Yes, I am stressed at work, and also moving away from my family in a couple of months to live with my long distance fiance, BUT... it's nothing compared to things that most people have to deal with. So I don't know what my problem is. I am fully aware that I worry TOO much, that I stress when it isn't necessary. I just get overwhelmed, and I need help in dealing with this. I do have things going on in my life, but NOTHING that should make me just stop in my tracks so I know I should/need to stop stressing. I don't want all the stressing to do something serious to my health. I'm terrified of that. And even though I "know" it's just anxiety, Whenever it hits me like it has recently, I still get extremely scared that I have something SERIOUSLY wrong with me. I don't know how to get those thoughts out of my head and just accept it for what it is. I worry too much about
dying, or something bad happening... I overwork my brain about
things like that. I got blood work and a heart monitor test done two years ago when I first had an attack, and the results came back fine... But recently I keep saying to myself... What if something is seriously wrong now and they didn't catch it two years ago? What if something is wrong in my brain? I freak myself out and intensify my anxiety to where I just become detached from reality. I've heard of people experiencing that, but it is my absolute least favorite symptom. I get really weird and I just can't explain the feeling. If someone could maybe describe the detachment feeling, I would really appreciate it. Because I can't put it into words. That's my number 1 request.
Number 2 is, I would really appreciate it if people would give me insight about
ways to naturally cope with anxiety. I don't want to take medicine. I just want to breathe deep and fight this. I know I am a strong person, I have great things in my life now and to look forward to. I'm overall usually a happy person, BUT when the anxiety affects my life whether it's for a day, two days, or one hour... it makes me not even enjoy things because I feel scared and helpless.
Thank you in advance. I hope joining this community helps me overcome this.