Thank you so much. Both of you.
It really helps to know that there are other people that have anxiety like me and deal with the all too often "what if's."
Lyn, I fully agree that they can kill your character. Kitt, thanks for the quote! I love it.
You honestly have made me feel so much better. I think they key is really trying to convince myself that my real sickness is the ANXIETY and the OCD not hiv. And of course, working to forgive myself for a stupid decision that I have certainly learned from. I often feel so angry that I have let this fear cause me so much stress and anguish.
When you start to think about the "what if's" how do you deal with it best? So far I have been googling and I just promised myself I will not do that anymore, however I will need a new tactic.