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NeedingAnswers
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   Posted 4/30/2010 7:35 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey, everyone.  I'll try to make this as brief as possible and I'm really hoping someone will respond.   I'm feeling so lost and confused right now and I don't know what I need to do.
 
I've been dealing with some medical issues for roughly 9 months now.  Always had a fear of going to doctors but it's something I've been forced to deal with for the last few months.  Managed to make it 25 years without even having blood drawn in my life, seriously!  Now, I had surgery in December to remove my gallbladder due to a gallstone.  I'm still having issues my doctor thinks are related to acid reflux.  I had an upper endoscopy Wednesday which I don't know the full results of yet.  Right now I do know that they found irritation in my esophagus which they took a biopsy of.
 
Now, on to the anxiety...I'd say about a month after I had my GB removed, I started having some of the same symptoms I had before plus a few new ones which had my freaking out.   I thought the surgery would fix all my problems...wrong!  It's now been almost 5 months since surgery and I feel as though it didn't fix my problems, in fact, things are worse now.  Currently been experiencing upper abdominal tenderness, chest discomfort, back aches, burping, and hiccups.
 
Now my health is ALL I can think about.  I've distanced myself from friends and family because it's annoying to have to invest time to having a relationship with them when I'd rather be trying to figure out what's wrong with me.  Can't shake the feeling that something is serious is going on even though I really do know that's probably not the case.  I'm having a ton of anxiety over all of this.  I've lost interest in a lot of things that I used to enjoy.  Always been a huge sports fanatic but now if a game is on, it's just background noise to me.  I totally can't focus on anything else but my symptoms.  I've been having trouble sleeping through the night which had never been a problem for me.  Also been having strange dreams.  When people are talking to be I'm not really comprehending what they are saying.  It's in one ear and out the other.  I just don't have any room in my brain for thoughts other than my health.
 
I feel as like no one around me understands or cares to know what I'm going through.  Am I making things worse by obsessing over it?  I've heard that anxiety can cause acid reflux.  Wondering if I'm unintentionally doing this to myself?  The symptoms I'm experiencing are really bothering me and I don't think they're being caused by anxiety.  I wouldn't be having anxieity if I wasn't having health issues.  I can't live the rest of my life dealing with this discomfort, it's making me crazy.  How much worse is anxiety making it though?  How do I know if I should see a doctor over my anxiety?  I don't want to take medication for this but do I need to be taking medicaiton?
 
Please, if you have time, respond.  I would greatly appreciate it.  I just need to know that someone out there understands what I'm going through.  Thanks!

Howlyncat
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   Posted 4/30/2010 7:59 PM (GMT -7)   
oh i hear ya n i can so so relate
i was always outgoing n happy all the time even though i hv illnesses but since this time last yr i hv become deaf n i hv literally turned into something i never thought could happen to me
im isoating self from friends except here
family is no where around of course and my daughter has recently moved out she cannot deal with my mood swings depression n tears
i dont blame her
i despise what i hv become i want t be me again but i know i need to fight to get the ME back
i finally took this am n walked by self to bank did bills n other things n it felt great
i hv to find the will to carry this thru each day
i miss me n i dont like being a shut in at all
my friends n family dont get it either was always laughing playing jokes on ppl going fishin n hiking as well as other things
YES i would def see a doc asap
I WILL find the me i lost n i know you can too we can take this journey together along with other ppl here
im so sorry as i really do get how you feel
plz keep posting n know you are cared for
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Celey
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   Posted 4/30/2010 8:02 PM (GMT -7)   
I think you really should see a doctor about your anxiety... Obsessing over your health is never a good sign... and you're sporting a lot of symptoms that sound like the anxiety is really taking over your life... It's definitely time to see a doctor...

And yeah... medicine probably would be helpful to you. I know you probably don't want to take it... but sometimes... You gotta do what you gotta do.... You might feel better for it...
I think I am being picked on by life, sometimes. But's that okay. Life and I are good buddies... I know life doesn't mean no harm. It just is the way it is. I can accept that.


NeedingAnswers
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   Posted 4/30/2010 8:07 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for the quick replies.  The thought of going to talk to a doctor about all of this is embarassing to me.  I hadn't been to a doctor in 6 years before all of these issues started.  Therefore, I don't have a regular doctor that I've built up trust with.  To talk to a stranger, face to face, about all this craziness I'm going through seems awkward.  I want to feel better though!  I guess I know what I need to do but just don't know if I can make myself go.  This is so frustrating.  How can you distinguish between symptoms of anxiety over actual symptoms of a physical illness?

Howlyncat
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   Posted 4/30/2010 8:15 PM (GMT -7)   
its not easy as health anxiety is real n recognized
but you really do hv to get to a doc
they will listen
dont be embarrassed about pouring yr heart out
you need help n that is the only way you will get it imho
that n support from here
this truly is a great place with awesome understanding people
let us know what you do okay
but honestly i think a dr visit is in order
huggs
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   Posted 5/1/2010 9:11 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey needing answers and welcome to Healingwell!! I have a chronic illness myself and whenever I get stressed I will develope IBS like symptoms right away. I will get diarrhea and nausea right away. I say yes, get in there and see the doc, I would also suggest you seeing about talking with a therapist. I found therapy to be really helpful to me as it helped me to change my thought patterns some. Good luck and keep us posted. Hugs!

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   Posted 5/1/2010 10:48 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi, I think you know what you need to do... It will not get any better until you find the answers you are seeking. Going to a doc, or a therapist will help alleviate some of the stressors.. As they say, the body & mind go hand in hand and are undeniably intertwined...the old chicken before the egg mind boggle-- can really drive one crazy...From experience, I can tell you it won't get any easier. You have to open up to someone--or you will <eventually> implode and your symptoms will escalate... Don't worry what others may think--you have to be your own advocate. take care...

debaser
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   Posted 5/1/2010 8:12 PM (GMT -7)   
Yep, if you want my advice I think it's probably time to get proactive. Reassert yourself and regain some control. I think seeing a doctor may help you do this, and probably a lot quicker than you can imagine. Talking to them about it may lift a big weight off your shoulders. After you have taken that initial step, you and your doctor will figure out a course of action that may or may not include therapy or drugs. Just make an appointment, prepare yourself to describe what you're going through, and keep an open mind about solutions. And do NOT be embarrassed. Problems with anxiety are much more common than you may think, and I'd be willing to bet that just about every doctor has seen a lot of patients for it. You're not alone and there's nothing at all to be embarrassed about.

NeedingAnswers
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   Posted 5/1/2010 8:21 PM (GMT -7)   
I keep hoping that maybe this is something that I can pull myself out of. If I could ever get my medical issues resolved the anxiety might just go away. Maybe it's causing some of the symptoms but I still maintain that there is something going on. The upper endoscopy did show some irritation in my esphogus but I don't know the extent of it yet. Have to wait until Wednesday to talk to my doctor about it. Never have I had an ongoing issue like the stomach problems I've had for almost 9 months now. Before the gallbladder surgery, the only time I'd been to the hospital was when I was born. Dealing with doctors is completely new to me and it's stressful. I don't feel as though I do a good job communicating my symptoms or how it's affecting my everyday life. Afraid that if I talk to my doctor about the anxiety, then they won't take my symptoms seriously, and therefore won't help me.

debaser
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   Posted 5/1/2010 9:09 PM (GMT -7)   
Well, your case and my case are actually strikingly similar. Reflux. Gallbladder gone but symptoms remained. This happened in my twenties and I'd never had any kind of health trouble before. It freaked me out something fierce. They had trouble diagnosing the gall bladder issue because my symptoms weren't typical...I was tested for very bad things by the kinds of doctors you never want to see (for months and months on end), and then it was found that my gall bladder was screwing me up.

What happened was thrown so off balance by all of these tests and possible diseases that I had that I ended up with anxiety disorder, I guess. This kind of thing can get into your head. My gall bladder symptoms got better, but my stomach was never, ever right after all of this. Eventually I ended up seeing a gastroenterologist who made the initial diagnosis of anxiety disorder. It was confirmed by a panel of three other doctors at the clinic. Basically, my head was spinning. I couldn't let go. The stomach has a billion nerve endings in it and can be affected by anxiety. In fact my stomach was so bad I never even noticed the anxiety itself.

At first I thought the diagnosis was just plain stupid, and that they were giving up. However, over the next few weeks I started looking at my own behavior from a new perspective and what do you know? I noticed that there was a lot of anxiety accompanying my stomach problems. Not a little. A lot. And so I went on about my life the best I could, trying to manage the anxiety issue by myself. I thought it would go away over time.

I was wrong about that. I mean I did better at first, but I'd have these breakdowns. Sometimes they'd last a few hours. Sometimes a day or even two. But then one hit me really hard and I was useless for a week. That's when I started taking medicine for the anxiety, and there was an immediate difference.

Can't lie. Drugs aren't the answer. They're only part of the answer for some if not most people. To get better, lots of the work you'll have to do yourself in your own head. I think your brain and my brain trained themselves to think differently while we were sick, and it's up to us to correct it. For my part I've made lots of progress. It hasn't always been easy and yeah there have been setbacks from time to time, but my quality of life has improved by a magnitude of ten.

Of course I cannot know how similar our stories really are, but on the surface they seem close and so I feel kind of like I know what you're going through. It sounds a lot like what I went through myself. And I'd hate to see you make the mistakes I've made.

My advice is to go to the doctor and talk about this head on. Get your life back.

debaser
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   Posted 5/1/2010 9:31 PM (GMT -7)   
I want to add that there are a few things about gall bladder surgery that you may not have been told before hand but should have been.

You may never be the same. The gall bladder is an organ we can live without, but that doesn't mean it doesn't serve a purpose. It absolutely does. Many people adapt to not having one, but some do not. You're five months post-op. There's still hope that the reflux and stuff will go away. Your body is still adapting. My surgeon said it could take up to nine months. The gastroenterologist who sent me for surgery said it would take six or seven.

Anyway, the acid reflux (and bile reflux) can irritate your esophagus. That may be what they saw on the GI. I had the same thing and somewhere I still have a photo of my irritated esophagus and stomach lining. Pretty gross. Nothing to worry about at this point, though. Well, it's not going to kill you or anything. There is actually a condition called Barrett's esophagus that is thought to be caused by prolonged irritation of the esophageal lining, and it can eventually cause cancer, but to worry about that is extremely premature. From what I know it has to go on for a very long time before it gets to that point. Of more immediate concern is that anxiety and weird digestion and reflux can all cause irritation of these delicate membranes. And it's uncomfortable, so it can cause more anxiety which will in turn cause more irritation.

So I went through that, too. In fact I've been subjected to probably every gastrointestinal test known to man.

Back to the "not having a gall bladder" thing. I'm one of those people who didn't adapt very well to not having one. Worst case, you're like me. And if that is the case then once you've dealt with it and accepted it, it's not going to be a big deal. Your body may not adapt well, but you can adapt other things and you'll be fine, trust me.

But I feel for you. It's very stressful. Those were the darkest days of my life, for sure. But things can and will get better...you simply have to believe that. Since I know something about what you're going through I know what kind of leap of faith that is, but it really is true that things will improve. Probably, anyway. I'm not a doctor. I don't know you. I suppose it's possible that something really bad could be wrong with you, but your story sounds so familiar that I really doubt that's the case.

I don't want to give my e-mail address out here, but if you want to talk I'll figure out a way to get it to you.

NeedingAnswers
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   Posted 5/3/2010 6:30 AM (GMT -7)   
debaser - Thank you so much for taking time to respond to my post.  While I'm not glad you had to deal with similar issues it is comforting to know that someone else know what I'm going through.  Sometimes I feel so alone and I know my family and friends are tired of hearing me complain.  They just think everything should be great for me after the gallbladder removal.  Well, things are worse on a day-to-day basis now and they don't understand what I'm dealing with.  Like I knew before surgery, your gallbladder is there for a reason and I didn't want to have mine out.  Just didn't really have any other options I thought.
 
I had been dealing with some slight stomach issues since August.  At the end of October is when I started having the gallbladder attacks.  Had 3 of those in a month before having my gallbladder removed in December.  Even after the first gb attack, at the time was the worst pain I'd ever experienced, I still didn't go to the doctor.  Just kept hoping that maybe everything would just miraculously go away.  No such luck and after the 2nd one I knew that I was going to have to deal with this in spite of my fear of going to doctors.  It was the most excruciating pain, thought I was going to die, and had the phone in my hand about to call an ambulance when it subsided.
 
I'm not the type of person to run to the doctor over every little thing.  Always had a huge fear of doctors so I avoid them if at all possible.  Now I've had numerous doctor visits and had surgery and still don't feel well at all.  No one else seems to know how scary and frustrating that is.  My fear is, like what you said, that I'm going to be stuck trying to live like this. 
 
Wednesday is my follow up appointment where I will find out the results of the upper endoscopy.  In realization, I'm not going to go away from that appointment feeling good about whatever the doctor says.  Either they found nothing really wrong, therefore nothing that should be causing the degree of discomfort I'm having.  So what will I do then?  On the other hand they did find a lot of damage to my esophagus - obvously would indicate the meds aren't helping (tried Prilosec, Nexium, and Prevacid) - so then what?  Either way I'm still going to have more questions than answers.  If he says nothing is seriously wrong, will that mean anxiety is causing a lot of the symptoms?  If there is damage, even while taking medication and eating right, does that mean my acid reflux could be caused by anxiety?  Will I need to have more tests done to determine what's going on?  Gosh, I hate waiting on appointment but like I said, I'm not going to be satisifed regarless of what he says.
 
It's ironic that you mentioned Barrett's esophagus because I swear I heard one nurse tell another that I had it.  Granted I was just waking up and was still groggy from the meds.  That totally freaked me out.  There is one problem that I had prior to the gallbladder removal that I failed to mention to my doctor.  In July and then again in September, I had pretty bad pain at my breastbone and in my back, just a few minutes after consuming just one alcoholic beverage.  Happened again in January and March, those were the only 4 times I had a drink, and my doctor thought the pain was caused by acid reflux when drinking.  If that's the case I've been having acid reflux for 10 months now and didn't even know it until the last few months?  I've only had heartburn a couple times!
 
You said it may take a while for things to get back to normal after the gallbladder surgery.  I keep hoping that just maybe things will start to improve but it only seems to get worse.  I just feel like crying which is so totally not me.  With what I'm going through now, there is no way I can live like this for the rest of my life.  Just accepting that this is the way things are gonna be, after the gallbladder removal, just doesn't seem possible to me at this point.  This is all so scary to me and worrying me a ton.  Not only do I keep wondering if something serious is wrong I also keep thinking what if all of this is just in my head, which is even more frustrating.
 
Again, thank you so much for taking time to respond.  It really helps to have someone that understands.  I'll probably be posting more about this but I've gotta go get ready for work now.  Hope you have a good day!

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   Posted 5/3/2010 10:56 AM (GMT -7)   
I think, NeedingAnswers, that your anxiety has been caused by the recent surgery you had and because of your other health issues (the acid reflux)...

What you're going through sounds a lot like something I've gone through...

At a certain point in my life (I believe 15 or 16)... I stopped going to the doctor... Didn't have to go to the doctor... Didn't want to go to the doctor... and besides that... I never believed in taking medicine....

Then, I came down with Crohn's disease (at 18)... Now, I have to take medicine... and I've visited with the doctor numerous times (because I have to)...

I think... having to deal with so many health issues... scared me really bad... It's kind of like it triggered a strong reaction in me... Suddenly, it feels like everything in the world is wrong with me... when in reality, it really isn't... (Well, with the exception of the Crohn's disease and such)...

And I think that's what might be happening in your case... Regardless, you are really frustrated and anxious about all of this.... So, I think it would be in your best interest, either way, to see a therapist...
I think I am being picked on by life, sometimes. But's that okay. Life and I are good buddies... I know life doesn't mean no harm. It just is the way it is. I can accept that.


debaser
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   Posted 5/3/2010 12:13 PM (GMT -7)   
I really doubt you have Barrett's. Not after just ten months of acid reflux. Obviously your doctor will need to determine whether you have it or not but usually it develops over a much longer period of time, I believe.

Your body is having to get used to a new way of digesting foods. I had a hard time with fiber after my surgery. Would have a lot of stomach pain after eating anything with a lot of fiber in it, whereas before the surgery I didn't. Eventually that did go away. I still can't eat anything with a lot of saturated fat, or at least not unless I want to deal with the consequences (which are annoying but not horrible).

Acid reflux is common, and if you had it before your surgery it would probably get worse after the surgery. Eventually it will calm down. You say you're on PPIs...try some maalox or rolaids along with them and see if that helps.

I have a question that's sort of personal in nature. Are you overweight? Or were you overweight but lost a lot before the gallstone appeared? If you're overweight now, losing some will definitely help out with the reflux. There's a pretty good GERD forum on this site that I'd encourage you to visit.

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   Posted 5/3/2010 12:37 PM (GMT -7)   
I never really thought I was having issues with acid reflux until after the gallbladder surgery. I did however have the problem when drinking alcohol before and after so I guess I could've been having acid reflux for a while without knowing it. As far as the weight goes, in June of last year I went on a diet, I say more of a lifestyle change. I had been consuming fast food in excess of 5 times per week I'd say. Since that time I've lost 56 lbs from 214 to 158. I did so by going on a low fat diet, cutting out fastfood, fried foods, sodas, and other junk food. Started eating more vegetables, fruits, whole grains, baked or grilled chicken, and yogurt. Apparently not eating enough fat in your diet can cause gallstone formation. Honestly thought I was doing something good for my health and doing things the right way. I didn't lose the weight rapidly it has taken me 11 months to lose the 56 lbs. Ironically, it backfired and I've had nothing but problems since. Techinally I'm still considered overweight but I'm working on it though I haven't been exercising recently cause I don't feel up to it.

I've been taking the Carafate and well as Prevacid. Also some Mylanta a few times but have been trying to remember to take Gaviscon before bed. Most of my symptoms are occuring throughout the day and not at night though. Today for some reason, I've had what I guess is heartburn all day long. I don't usually have heartburn but it may be because the one time I strayed from my diet, at at a Mexican restaurant last night, I'm really paying the price for it. Yeah, it was stupid but I was out with family and friends and that is where they wanted to eat. Otherwise, I've really been trying to watch what I'm eating and avoid foods that could trigger reflux. I'm trying to be patient and give my body time to adjust but on days like today I'm really wondering if I'm ever going to feel good again.

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   Posted 5/3/2010 2:24 PM (GMT -7)   
csmc2 - I'm currently taking Prevacid once a day, usually in the morning.  I also take 2 teaspoons of Carafate 4 times per day.  Also was told to take Gaviscon before bed.  Wednesday I go back to the doctor to find out the results of the upper endoscopy.  I'm assuming he'll change my meds at that time because they are not helping.
 
No, I'm not taking any anxiety meds at this time.  I'm starting to think that I need to be though because I'm not having much luck at pulling myself out of this.  I know this is not all in my head and that I'm experiencing real pain but I'm wondering in actuality how bad it is cause everyone says anxiety can cause things to be so much worse.
 
Celey - It's like now I'm so much more keenly aware of every ache and pain in my entire body and always wonder if it's a new symptom.  It's driving me nuts.
 
Does anyone know if anxiety can cause hiccups?  I swear I can't eat without getting them just a few minutes afterward.  Also if I've been sitting for a while I'll get them as soon as I stand up and many random times throughout the day.
 
Thank you all for your support and I appreciate you taking the time to respond.  At least I know there are people out there that understand what I'm going through.  It's so much easier to talk to complete strangers, over the internet, than it is to talk to my friends and family about all of this.  They just don't know or care to understand.  Part of the reason I haven't talked to a doctor or therapist about this because I'm afraid of them judging me.
 
I've got a lot of decisions to make coming up.  If Wednesday's appointment doesn't address my concerns to I go to another doctor about my issues or do I try getting on medication for anxiety and see how that goes.  I'm scared, frustrated, worried, and confused.  Hoping to get this resolved soon.
 
Thanks again for all your responses.  I definitely appreciate the advice.

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   Posted 5/3/2010 2:48 PM (GMT -7)   
NeedingAnswers.... Pain is pain... I mean... Anxiety can excaberate your symptoms... but I really don't think pain is something you can just imagine... I mean, that's just my opinion...

Still... Some of the aches and pains (and other symptoms... such as the hiccups) you feel may be just a part of normal everyday living... Normal wear and tear... The anxiety you have may be making you think that it could be a part of something worse than what it actually is...

Some doctors... can be kind of judgemental (in my experience... I don't like doctors much myself)... But therapists are different... Their goal is to try and help you through your anxiety... You ARE experiencing anxiety right now... (scared, worried, frustrated, confused)... But this is in tandem with other health issues (your acid reflux, the surgery you had to have)... which are real and are not in your head...

I get the feeling... you're scared about having anxiety... //^_^\\'... It just seems to me like... you're a little defensive.... I'm not trying to make light of your symptoms or anything... It's important that you see a doctor about them, too... If anything else, just to ease some of your anxiety...

Anxiety is something a lot of people suffer with... It doesn't mean that everything you feel is "all in your head"... If that was true, then I'm sure the symptoms I have with Crohn's disease would be considered all in my head (when they're not... since I was diagnosed and I really do have those symptoms)... It just means that you worry a lot... perhaps when you don't really need to... You get those scared, worried, frustrated, and confused feelings... and it negatively impacts your life...

That is what is happening right now... Which is why I recommend that you do go to the doctor (to get your symptoms checked out... and to help alleviate some of your fears)... and to a therapist...

I think you will eventually feel better.... Medicine for anxiety will help you... And once you get your health problems under control, you might find that your anxiety will lower even more.... *Since my Crohn's disease has stopped acting up, I have found that I have much less of an issue with my health anxiety*
I think I am being picked on by life, sometimes. But's that okay. Life and I are good buddies... I know life doesn't mean no harm. It just is the way it is. I can accept that.


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   Posted 5/3/2010 3:11 PM (GMT -7)   
Celey - Honestly I've had moments over the last couple months where I've convinced myself that something is seriously wrong and that I'm dying. Been doing way to much research on the internet and whatever I read about I then start thinking I have. I'm afraid of having my doctor judge me, or think I'm being ridiculous, if I talk to him about the anxiety. There are so many people out there battling serious illness and handling much better than I'm handling my perceived problems. I keep telling myself that if something serious was going on it would've shown up in the bloodwork I had done recently or on the upper endoscopy. Still yet, I have my moments, when my chest starts aching, in which I start thinking the worst. Going to a therapist, a complete stranger, and talking about my issues seems completely awkward to me. Yes, it probably would help and is something I definitely need to look in to. It just getting up the courage to do it that's the hard part. Why can't I just stop whining about this and do something about it?! I really don't like the way I'm acting right now.

Celey
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   Posted 5/3/2010 3:17 PM (GMT -7)   
Yeah.... That sounds a lot like health anxiety...

You can do it, though... You gotta tell yourself that you need to go to that therapist... This isn't something you should have to deal with alone...

And don't feel bad about the way you're acting... You can't help how you feel... Your feelings are your feelings... and you shouldn't deny yourself them...
I think I am being picked on by life, sometimes. But's that okay. Life and I are good buddies... I know life doesn't mean no harm. It just is the way it is. I can accept that.


debaser
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   Posted 5/3/2010 3:52 PM (GMT -7)   
Anxiety can be utter hell on the digestive tract. I was sick forever. Had surgery. Supposedly recovered from surgery. Symptoms continued. Finally went to the doctor to get something for anxiety and was given Klonopin. I was too scared and sick to even try it.

Then I took it. Within three days I was a new person. Not kidding. I'm not saying ALL of your symptoms are the result of anxiety, but if you're anything like me then the anxiety is creating some new symptoms and making others much worse. There's a mind-body connection that's much more powerful than you may think.

Celey
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   Posted 5/3/2010 3:56 PM (GMT -7)   
I'll second that.... Anxiety tends to aggravate my Crohn's...
I think I am being picked on by life, sometimes. But's that okay. Life and I are good buddies... I know life doesn't mean no harm. It just is the way it is. I can accept that.


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   Posted 5/3/2010 5:28 PM (GMT -7)   
I think mental health care should be a part of treating any long term illness.

NeedingAnswers
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   Posted 5/3/2010 5:47 PM (GMT -7)   
To be completely honest, I've always suffered from a lot of anxiety. Especially when it comes to being in social situations. This has caused me to miss out on a lot of things in life. I've done a good job isolating myself and avoiding situations that would be uncomfortable for me. Instead of dealing with my problems, I created a comfort zone which I rarely step out of.

This all sounds so pathetic, I know, but I'm 26 years old and still live at home. My friends that I had when I was in high school I no longer talk to because I feel as though they all have much more interesting and successful lives. They have careers and I'm still working at the same lousy job I had in high school. Some of them are married and have kids all while I've never even been on a date...sad but true. Couldn't even make it through college, even though my grades were really good, because I refused to take public speaking. Planned on going to a 2 year school and then transferring but I quit when I was 3 classes shy of my associates degree. Even picking up the phone to call the doctor's office to schedule an appointment gives me a great deal of anxiety. I will end up dialing part of the phone number multiple times, and then hanging up, maybe 5 or 6 times before I complete the call. I'm worried about what to say when they answer the phone. My sister is always inviting me over to her place, it's a 45 minute drive from my house, but I won't go because driving places I'm not totally familiar with, and the traffic, make me extremely nervous.

Now, I'm dealing with all these medical issues and I can't run from it like I've done from every other uncomfortable situation in my entire life. Why, because I'm afraid I might be dying and I know I need to do something about it. It is so embarassing admitting all of this to not only myself, but to everyone who could be reading this. I just want to be happy. For the most part, as long as I don't think in depth about where my life is, I'm not happy but not depressed either. When I do think about things though it is frustrating because I feel like I have no control over my own life. This is not just as simple as getting my medical problems cleared up and this will go away. I'm stuck and even though it's not where I want to be, it may be more comfortable than facing all these ridiculous fears I have.

Now, what do you all think?...Am I a lost cause?

MMMNAVY
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Date Joined Jul 2006
Total Posts : 6927
   Posted 5/3/2010 6:15 PM (GMT -7)   
No, you are not a lost cause.
Everyone wants to be happy.
Get some help.
It really is worth it!
Use this as a catalyst for your life.

Celey
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Date Joined May 2007
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   Posted 5/3/2010 6:51 PM (GMT -7)   
I agree with Navy... You are not a lost cause... You can get treatment for this anxiety and your health issues...

Your life is far from over... and it's not pathetic... You're a little slow to get on your feet, sure... But there's nothing wrong with that... Everybody goes through life at their own pace... You're still young! You've got plenty of time still...

Just take a deep breath...

It can be really hassling having to deal with making appointments and such... So, I say, whenever you do... Do something to reward yourself... It'll help condition you to associate making appointments with at least a semi-positive feeling...
I think I am being picked on by life, sometimes. But's that okay. Life and I are good buddies... I know life doesn't mean no harm. It just is the way it is. I can accept that.

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