Hi Kitt,lyn and Old Hippy
Sorry took so long to respond to your comments - I have to make sure
to put "notify by e-mail of reply". Thank you for your input and time. I
have been impressed by the helping nature of the members of this forum
- makes me want to do the same. At this time I have decided to not see a
therapist - I feel I can help myself and hopefully with my maturity I will be
able to move in a positive direction. The most important things are to trust
myself and not be too hard on myself when I feel unexplainable anxiety
- my gad- which just creates more anxiety. I feel my experiences have given
me a reference point on how to move ahead in my life - but I know there will
be my orientation to react in a way not condusive to mental well being. Who
knows why in the exact same situation ,even in the same enviroment one
can act differently?: An unrealized negative trigger? Lack of sleep, caffene,
childhood embarassments? I'm going to be cognisent of my thoughts and
try to get a better handle on this - although not get too get caught up in
my wheels spinning. I will try meditation and I have always exercised which
is good. I do agree if I do ever want to see a therapist again - Im open to-
its not one size fits all. I know there was a better fit for me out there.
The only meds I take now is 1mg of xanax at night to sleep.
Will be in touch.