I am having a really rough time right now, panic and depression and becoming agoraphobic again, I really could use some advice how to work through what is going on. A year ago we moved from IL to KY and I HATE it here, in the last year so much has happened to me that I don't know how I can make it through each day. I will explain some of the things that have happened.
When we moved they changed my health insurance and because I am on disability they have informed me I have to go on medicare (which I knew nothing about since I am on my husband's plan) I only get 289 a month and now I have to pay 176 a month to medicare which leaves me with 111.
I take Xanax for my anxiety and panic it is the only thing that works for me I have tried the generic form and many other meds but now that I have a new insurance neither the insurance or medicare will pay for it and I cant take the generic xanax ( My Doctor has written several times to the insurance telling them that I get sick from the fillers in the generic xanax) I now have to pay for my own which is 300 a month YEA RIGHT like I can afford that I am freaking out.
Moving here was such a mistake and I want to go home but no way can I afford to where can I live on 111 a month. Today I get the registration for the licence plates and find out they charge taxes every year and I have to pay 221 for the sticker. On top of that It is very HOT here and I can not take the heat my panic rises big time I can not breath in the heat. We get in the car today and guess what no air conditioning OK so we will take it to get it refilled, found out that a rock went through the condenser and it will cost 600 to get it fixed.
I wont be able to leave the house until it is fixed which is only adding to the agoraphobia.
the last thing I can think of right now ( cause there is so much) is back in Oct I started feeling like food was getting stuck behind the breast bone, lots of phlegm, my GI put me on Omeprazole which seams to be helping me but I cant have any test done till the medicare kicks in which will be a few months. right now I only have the secondary ins and that pays nothing.I know some on here have GERD does anyone else have this problem.
My husband is no help at all, seams since we moved here all he cares about and sides with is his family, most of my days are spent in silence alone and despair. my days are filled with thoughts of cant breath, cancer,dizzy name It I most likely felt it.
Sorry this is so long but I needed to tell someone and see if anyone can at least calm me down a bit. I feel like a balloon ready to burst. Thank You for reading this
Help Me Lord To Be All I Can Be And To Take One Day At A Time