I had my first panic attack about a month ago and the attacks happened every few days for a while, but now I am getting them several times a day. I went to see my doctor and she put me on Celexa (I tried paxil but the side effects were horrible) and xanax (as needed). I'm to the point where I really don't think I can function normally. I just finished school and I am starting my summer job next week, but I really don't think I can stay there. I am terrified I am going to have a panic attack while working, or that something bad will happen to me. I am going to be working outside with plants and one of my greatest fears is getting stung by a bee and having a severe allergic reaction for some reason, and I am petrified that this will eventually come to pass. When I have a panic attacks I get dizzy, nauseous, flushed, my heart starts to pound, my chest hurts, I feel like I can't breathe and there is something in my throat, I start sweating, and I just get this overwhelming feeling that I am about to die and nothing can help me. They last about twenty minutes to sometimes over an hour.
Right now I just don't know what to do. I am starting college in the fall and I'm going to a school known for very rigorous academics. I am worried that with the panic attacks I won't be able to do as well as I should and I'm afraid it will impact my social life. I plan to take advantage of the school's mental health resources, but until I get there in August I don't know what to do.
I'm not sure why I started having panic attacks. I had a lot of family stress early in the year but when the attacks started things were much better and I was more relaxed and at ease than I have been at any other point this year. I haven't gone through anything really traumatic either.
Basically I am wondering what I should do right now so I can actually go to work and not have an attack. And I'm also wondering if this is a problem I am going to have for the rest of my life. I've already started avoiding certain things/situations because of it and I'm afraid that if it goes on for much longer I'm going to be incapable of doing anything. Please help!