I have been in a totally disabling breakdown for over 3 years and doing all the recovery stuff: meditation, abdominal breathing, exercise, diet and so on. I hate drugs and have had bad experiences with almost all including benzos where it took me 3 plus years to get through withdrawal that was far worse than the anxiety.
So now my back is against the wall and my doctor tells me the most "kind" anxiety (gentle) is Doxepin. I have the liquid so I can take just drops. I am scared sh**less to even look at the bottle ( bad reaction, tolerance, addiction, taking control of my mind etc).
Last night I watched the sun go down and thought I an out of options and need to try it......but if it makes me worse I have nothing left to cope with. As it got dark I freaked and went to bed. So today I am in total anxiety hell and still scared.
Anyone been there