Whoa Mama! Your situation is tough. You sound like a strong, smart person though and I'm sure that you will be able to work through this. I too started to experience A/P for the first time when problems arised in my blended family (conflict between my daughter and second husband) Are you able to get some family therapy? Do you have a clergy/priest/rabbi who could provide counseling for you? Whatever you do, please take care of yourself-your health and well being are so important! Take time for YOU-meditate, pray,exercise. The kids should be going back to school soon-Yay!!! Resist the urge to clean, cook and do laundry-just do what helps you to relax and feel good for a while-you deserve it. Then you can get some perspective to make some positive changes in your household. My thoughts and prayers are w/ you!
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"