it's just that I was only mildly depressed and I felt weird and I've always been anxious and it was never a problem (save for sometimes lying awake at night being afraid of dying) but when I started to feel depressed, I immediately jumped to "things are not ok, something is wrong with me, I'm not normal, I can't date anyone or do anything this way." After a week of hell, consisting of a panic attack and bed-ridden anxiety and tremors, I was able to calm myself down, adjust and go "ok, im just slightly depressed and im going to get medicine and therapy and im going to be ok." All along that process I felt tense and worried, constantly saying "I'm going to be ok, I'm going to be ok." and I was pretty ok, then I got the news that my dad had leukemia around the same time I started taking Budeprion SR and my anxiety went BANANAS. I went off the medicine... felt better but not cured. I went back on the medicine and was not anxious for a couple days and then my dad had to be rushed to the hospital with a neutrapeanic fever and now he's gonna be in the hospital, out of work for six months and we might lose the house. Now I'm terrified and scared of losing hope and going crazy and never getting back to my life and the way I once was.