Suffering from Anxiety. I feel so alone, and feel like i'm losing my mind!

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Anxiety Girl
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   Posted 8/28/2012 12:56 PM (GMT -7)   
cry  Please READ! Advice needed... I have suffered from anxiety attacks for years now. The first time i got them was about 6 years ago when my uncle died. I didn't know what it was but my mom explained. I've always been a big worryer. When i was a kid, i would worry about all the little things. And then as i got older, i worry about everything now. I overcame the anxiety the first time. I just can't remember how i did now. I guess cause i feel so lost and like my mind is going crazy now and i feel so alone! I just want to go back to normal. I feel like i never will. This time it is way worse to where i can't even leave my house. I can't even get in the car to go to the store anymore without fear in me. I automatically have a panic attack. The littlest aches in my body causes me to panic. The littlest twitches near my heart causes me to panic. Twitches in my left arm cause me to panic. Hot flashes, ear aches, stomach nerves, bone pain, eye vision loss, EVERYTHING causes me to panic and have an anxiety attack. I was fine just a few months ago. I was normal. My bestfriend then took 100 triple c pills and overdosed. I nearly lost him. I spent weeks with him at the hospital. He is fine now. But i am not fine. Im very happy he is alive. Im thankful he is here, so thankful. But im not thankful for what is happening to me now. I can't get over this. Im going insane! I pray to God and i'm trying to find my inner strength. I fear death. I fear everyday that i am going to die, but then i never do and im wasting my life worrying. Im 22 years old. Im young. I have a full life ahead of me and i sit here and anxiety everyday and nothing is probably wrong with me physically anyways. I dont feel like i will ever be normal again. I fear taking any pills. If i have a headache or any type of pain, then i just deal with it. I feel like im so weird and going crazy. Some people look at me crazy when i tell them this. I havent always been this way. I can't control my thoughts. I can't shake the feeling that something bad is happening to me every moment. I've always been a Christian girl. I love God with all my heart! And now im different and depressed and think about just dying.  cry Maybe someone to talk to will help me a little.

Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 8/28/2012 1:24 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello and welcome!

I am so sorry to hear about the anxiety that you are suffering! I know how it feels, and yes, it does help to talk with others who have gone through similar feelings and circumstances....so great job on reaching out here to us! :)

We are a caring and supportive community and will be here to listen and support you in any way that we can!

What have you tried in terms of anxiety management in the past?

Talk to you soon,

S.C.
Moderator:Anxiety/Panic

"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"

"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom

Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT

Hibee
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   Posted 8/28/2012 3:11 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi

Welcome to the forum good to meet you. Sorry to here you are having anxiety at the moment we can all relate here I would suggest talking things through with your doctor and see what they say.


There is lots to can be done to help with anxiety and I always suggest that therapy is a good way of dealing with anxiety eg CBT. Keep posting here we are here to help.

Hibee
I try not to worry about the future -- so I take each day just one anxiety attack at a time.

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countryhearts
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   Posted 8/28/2012 5:04 PM (GMT -7)   
There are many of us here in the same boat, you're not alone. *hug*

cole04
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   Posted 8/28/2012 5:17 PM (GMT -7)   
you sound like me to the T!
i freak out everyday all day about my heart i get chest pain /pressure everyday, bellyaches, headaches, multiple er visits, cardiology,neurology family dr.u name i have been there and now im 27 yrs old who has lost years away due to worrying and now in debt due to no health ins.everyday feels like my last, and when having a 4yr old that makes even more scary!
i hope this forum will help you as for it has me... even if its only for a few minutes.lol

anxiety freak
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   Posted 8/28/2012 8:19 PM (GMT -7)   
I'm 20 & have been dealing with every single thing you are since I was 16!!! You are me to a t! !!!! I had a panic attack that lasted over 6 hours last night!!!!!!! If you ever need someone to talk to email me, address in profile... maybe we can help each other when we need assurance!!!!!!! Hugs, I know your pain!!

Post Edited By Moderator (Scaredy Cat) : 8/28/2012 8:45:22 PM (GMT-6)


Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 8/28/2012 8:47 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey anxiety freak,

I edited out your addie because if you post it here...it's on blast for all the public to see. If you just have it in your profile, then only members have access...much safer!

However, I noticed that your profile addie is different from the one that you posted? You may need to change/update it.

Thanks,

S.C.
Moderator:Anxiety/Panic

"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"

"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom

Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT

~SimplyUs~
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   Posted 8/28/2012 9:06 PM (GMT -7)   
It is great that you are starting to talk about it. Just remember that you have will power His will power. It's a Christians promise that there will be light ahead, so dont give up. He gives us the strength. It really helped to go to the Dr. but some of the best help is talking with others who understand. Hang in there girl. Don't worry what others might or might not think. I wish you the best. my heart goes out to you. I know, from experience, that this too shall pass.

dakota16
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   Posted 8/29/2012 5:12 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey,

sorry you are feeling this way - you need to do something about it, not wanting to leave the house is not a good way to be and it is something you need to overcome sooner rather than later - you were fine just a few months ago, you are that same person and believe me you can get back to being that way. You should definitely talk to your doctor and take it from there. A few months ago I was nervous and jittery all the time, thought I was going crazy. I feel normal again thanks to a visit with my doctor and the right med for me. You need to believe in yourself to make a start..take control and stop letting your anxiety control you (easier said than done right, but it can be done)

Also why doesn't anyone ever use the chat rooms here??! if people who have similar experiences wish to talk...? You and AF for example could arrange a time / day for a chat there instead of just email - just a thought

Wishing you some peace soon xx

andwes
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   Posted 8/29/2012 11:21 AM (GMT -7)   
For all you "young" anxiety sufferers out there, take it from me, a 65-year-old who suffers on and off with anxiety and fear....it DOES get better. I actually had terrible anxiety in my early 20's and thought ALL the same thoughts you thought, Deana22. But anxiety went away totally for about 12-14 years. Then I had some tough relationship times and it all flooded back. But this time I at least knew what I was dealing with and that all of these crazy thoughts didn't make ME crazy, it was just the anxiety rearing its ugly head. It's a shame that any of us have to suffer with it at all, but since we do, the more we learn about it and know we are NOT crazy, we are NOT going to lose our minds, etc., the more it becomes bearable when it does come around. 45 years ago today I was absolutely SURE I would end up in a mental ward the rest of my life. Since that time I have had three beautiful children (all grown now), had some great jobs, have a nice home, two great dogs and many great friends. But I STILL have anxiety very frequently. I can assure you from experience that it will never kill you but it will envelope you if you let it. My mother always said to me when I had this as a teen "get up and DO something...like clean out the frig. And if you're still having anxiety when it's cleaned out, clean it out AGAIN." Annoying advice when you're suffering a bad anxiety attack, but I did it and it worked. The key is KEEP BUSY, force yourself if you have to but KEEP BUSY.

joavila92
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   Posted 8/29/2012 2:13 PM (GMT -7)   
Same here, I'm paranoid of everything.I can't no longer distinguish what is a serious health problem or not . I live in fear everyday. Even when I keep busy I'm thinking about everything. Being busy is just like doing something but still having those thoughts.it's awful. A couple months ago I was normal. Or art last I want this way. And now I'm living in fear. Even when I visit the doctors I feel like they are missing something.and they are just perceiving things that won't work for me.I am 19 . It is awful being this way. But it's a struggle

Anxiety Girl
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   Posted 8/29/2012 10:45 PM (GMT -7)   
Wow I actually feel just a little bit relieved that i'm not the only one who goes through this. Thank you to everyone who took the time to respond to my post. It means alot to have people take the time to reach out and write to me. We are NOT alone. I thought i was losing my mind. I still do some days. It's a BIG struggle :( Even knowing im not alone, i still struggle bad cause my mind fights with me. I do believe in "good days" and "bad days" now. Because i will have a good day or good moments in a day now and then it will go bad. I try to think positive yall. It's hard. I hope going to the doctor will help me some. I really do. I guess that makes me nervous to, not knowing what to expect or what will happen. Back when i was normal, which i know i am still normal, but back when i was normal from all this, i would look at others who were depressed with there life for no apparent reason and i wouldn't understand, but wow do i understand now, yes i really do. Honestly, if this anxiety would go away, then i would be a happy person. Nothing in my life would be wrong. I actually took a risk today and left my house to pick up my niece from school and then i decided to go to my sisters house and spend the day with my nieces and nephew. I have missed them so much. Anxiety has made me not want to leave my house at all. My house is my "safe zone". I did good at first today, but then when i got to my sisters, i started feeling weird but i faught it off and focused my mind on other things. And I just hate being in cars. Ugh, its the worst for me. And when i got home to my "safe zone", i started going into panic mode, i guess because i held it in all day and i felt like i was going to pass out. But i think about how i used to be normal and i try to be again. I just worry that when i go to the doctor to, that they will find something. Anyways, I hope that you all will respond alot more. It's nice having friends who go through the same thing. I don't feel as crazy anymore. I hope we can all get through this and live normal happy lives. That's what our God would want us to do. And it's not fair we can't have good happy lives like others who never experienced anxiety. Aren't they lucky? But are they really? Or are we the lucky ones? The ones who go through anxiety, overcoming it, being stronger then ever, and then knowing what to expect if it ever happens again. My email should be on my page everyone. Please feel free to email me anytime. Oh it would make my day if you would. Or write me on my posts. Have a great night everyone

Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 8/30/2012 8:27 AM (GMT -7)   
Yes, you are definitely among friends here who understand...and we will be here to support each other always!:)

I completely agree with the closing idea of your post! I have often said that those of us with anxiety are some of the strongest people around. To face that amount of fear that we do (sometimes on a daily basis) take the courage that not everyone posesses!

I am glad that you have joined us, and look forward to getting to know you better:)

Post often!

S.C.
Moderator:Anxiety/Panic

"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"

"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom

Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT

Lunakg1
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   Posted 8/31/2012 12:01 AM (GMT -7)   
I have Pure OCD ! I have heart palpitations , panic attacks and ringing on my ears !! I know how you feel!! A girl almost chocked with a grape in the restaurant I work as host. I almost fainted of the panic attack I felt , i think i was more worried than the mom ! believe me I know how it is!

stkitt
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   Posted 8/31/2012 9:04 AM (GMT -7)   
You're not alone Deana2, I've experienced the same symptoms.

My symptoms vary from attack to attack which sounds strange, but I definately do get the foggy feeling when I'm about to have a panic attack in Target or whereever else.

You aren't going crazy. I always think I'm on the verge of insanity too with my thoughts and how I feel, but I'm not, it's just the symptoms of anxiety.

*hugs*

We're all here for you.
Kitt

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