I am sorry. :/ I know how discourahing this is.
I am sure you will get some good guidance from your appointment today.
Let us know what you hear, how it goes...and how we can keep you in support.
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT