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janetlee
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   Posted 6/13/2006 9:58 PM (GMT -7)   
It's always been a suprise to me that I seem to be a bit different from most people that have had panic attacks and anxiety. I have never, not even the first time I had one, thought that it meant I was dying or that I was going crazy or was having a heart attack. My first panic attack was the one that awoke me from sleep in the middle of the night when I was 17 years old. I sat straight up in bed! I knew immediately what was happening to me! I had no knowledge of panic attacks, per se, but knew what it meant to be nervous and/or worried. That panicky feeling was because I knew I had to go into work in the morning, to a job that I didn't like, didn't want, and I was afraid of failure....so anyone that's read my previous posts probably knows what I'm talking about. Anyhow, another way I'm different from most is because I like to drive! My first shrink was really suprised by that. He said that most folks with anxiety get real anxy when they have to drive. I said, "Not me! I love to drive because I am in control!"
So I guess I'm an oddity in the world of anxious people! tongue
Anyone else here that never thought for a minute that a panic attack meant they were going crazy or having a heart attack or dying? confused
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cococola
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   Posted 6/14/2006 2:20 AM (GMT -7)   
When i had my first panic attack (i was already diagnosed with anxiety disorder and OCD) i knew it was a panic attack already! My body felt really hot and i felt it going up my neck and face. I was very dizzy and i feel like fainting and crying at the same time! Hehe! It was my only panic attack hopefully!
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Jan Marie
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   Posted 6/14/2006 2:49 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Janet. I did think I was dying when it first happened. I too enjoy driving. I find it very therapeutic. I think the vibrations of the car engine mask the tinglings and vibrations going on in my body... so I feel kind of normal in a car.

brownleaf
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   Posted 6/14/2006 3:29 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Janet,
I like these little threads, they make me think, so thank you

I guess i have always been a bit different, and i have tried to nourish that best i could, if i see one event that gave an insight into what i will term as you have "nervousness", i was always of a happy nature no matter what, but i would get excited, happily, for no reason, if i crashed then that would have put me in a different catagory, but i never crashed after, i would just burst into laughter in the middle of the street, if i was an attention seeker, i would have loved it but im ceratinly not, so i really tried hard to bury it, i was embarrassed by it, i still get this, though not as often, but im much more relaxed about it now,

I know the feeling when i played in bands many years ago, that the waiting to perform was always hard, and nerve racking, but once up there, it was gone, i think some anxiety is based within a lack of confidence in our own ability, we may know we are capable, but for some reason, deny it within ourselves

jsg118
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   Posted 6/14/2006 4:37 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey thats very true, I guess you dont feel anxious because your mind is on to something else. I dont have an anxiety when I drive, so I love driving, that takes off evrything so I'm calm and secure that i knew i wont have to suffer an attack. My advice for all of us, is that makes our selves busy. Thats the first step! Goodluck! yeah

bluejelli
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   Posted 6/14/2006 6:09 AM (GMT -7)   
I think it depends on the when and where you have the attacks factor. My fear of driving is because the first BAD one I had as an teenager was while driving at night. It was on a 2 lane road with big ditches on either side. I had to tirn around and go home. I held my head out the window the entire time. It is funny though, Because I was taking my "boyfriend" home, After my mom had told me NO. I was doing it anyways. I told her I was going to the 7-11. I have always wondered if it was the guilty conscious that made me have it. But anyways, that gave me the fear of driving I do believe. I love to drive. And after that, I did have the freedom when I did not have attacks. But now, forget it. Thats a big part that depresses me. Because I LOVE LOVE to drive sigh .
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MissAndrea
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   Posted 6/14/2006 6:22 AM (GMT -7)   
Same here! I loved to drive and hate that it has become such an awful trigger for me. When i was a 18-20, i used to take off and drive half way across the country, through the mountains, in my ford festiva, which is basically a step up from a go cart--not your safest car. But i loved it. I miss that freedom, for sure.

I hope someday I can overcome it. For now, i still drive, but have all these limits, like no highways, no roads where you cant pull over, etc. Cant get very far on those rules!

Howlyncat
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   Posted 6/14/2006 6:27 AM (GMT -7)   
My escape so to say is driving with the tunes(oldies ) cranked full blast going down all the back roads looking for the deer and other wildlife out there........I love it it is my way of coping I guess with A/P as well as all the other things I do .....I dont like other ppl driving as much lol ....When things get really rough I hop in car turn on music and drive to beat he** ........I have gotten lost on backroads but doesnt take long to always find the highway to home.......hmmmmmmm I do know so many with this DD that cannot and will not drive......yes there are strange things always with this DD........
On the 22nd of this month I have a first time group meeting of teens coming just to talk about whatever is on their minds .....An idea from a friend a long time dream .....
As the day draws closer I am nervous but of what? I know most of the kids and I am easy to get along with (most times lol).......I think it is more of an anticipatory angst than nervous one ya know I do know I am so looking forward to it .The teens in this town HAVE nothing to do but hang on the corners end up on drugs or drinking and so hopefully this is an out for them .....will keep you posted......Wish me luck please.......Take care all and God Bless......Lyn
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shell67
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   Posted 6/14/2006 6:33 AM (GMT -7)   
I have to say yes, the first time i did think i was dying, from a heart attack, we were on our way home from camping and i didnt say much, except take me to the hospital (my kids were in the back seat and i was trying not to scare them) but i was scared to death. I was in the hospital for a few days before even the docs figured out it wasnt my heart, it was panic. That gives you a clue of the mentality of the docs where i live. Sometimes i can drive, other times i have to pull over still. It happend a few nights ago, my son wondered what was going on, but i made it back on the road in bout 5 minutes. Just to go get some cigarettes....although i dont mind highways andrea, its all the people when driving in town around me, too many, better in the open spaces, but even then only for a short time.
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MissAndrea
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   Posted 6/14/2006 6:53 AM (GMT -7)   
you are right, shell, about the other people driving. my rule about highways hasnt kept me any safer. about 2 months ago, i had my first real car accident on a quiet neighborhood street with a young drunk rich kid who decided he didnt have to pay attention to stop signs. Ouch! my 8 year old daughter was in the car, and although we were not badly hurt, when i heard her screaming i was sure it was really bad. I think it has helped bring on my relapse.

Here in Denver, it is hard anywhere you drive because it is so congested and chaotic, and people drive sooo horribly here. The highways here are crazy and its like all of the bad driving in the city, with a shorter reaction time because people drive so fast!

I would still trade in this fear of it for the risk, though!

shell67
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   Posted 6/14/2006 7:16 AM (GMT -7)   
yeah andrea, im sorry i should explain, i live in a town of about 28,000 and its the biggest town in the area, so highways are not so busy. Im sorry you had a wreck, that does make it worse. Me and a few friends went to tunica mississippi to go gambling, we got rear ended in the turn lane off of the highway, and the idiot ran off. The cops chased, but i doubt they caught him. But it did make the traveling harder, i got the worst of it being in the back seat, but i was so scared. so now the back seat is even worse than driving lol. Needless to say, we decided our luck wasnt good enough to go in there and spend money, lol so we came back home without even pulling in one casino. I would also be happy to trade the fear away ;)
shell
" Dwell not on the past. Use it to illustrate a point, then leave it behind. Nothing really matters except what you do now, in this instant of time. From this moment onward you can be an entirely different person, filled with love and understanding, ready with an outstretched hand, uplifted and positive in every thought and deed."
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paniccu
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   Posted 6/14/2006 7:44 AM (GMT -7)   
I had my first panic attaack after getting a shot so I thought I was having an allergic reaction

bluejelli
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   Posted 6/14/2006 7:49 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi pannicu, Did you already have a "shot" phobia? Or did it just come out of the bue?
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logix
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   Posted 6/14/2006 2:41 PM (GMT -7)   

i had my first panic attack when i was 21....

i ate dinner with 2 friends, hopped in the car with them, and started driving to a bar....

all of a sudden i had trouble breathing...i wasnt gasping for air, but i felt as if for once in my life i actually had to somewhat put effort into breathing.....i became scared and just told my friend "drive me to the hospital"......

i went to the hospital and was cleared after a few hours....they said nothing was wrong.....and i was completely confused cuz i knew i wasnt making anything up.

as days went on from that point on my mind state totally changed and i became scared to go out.......

i had panic attacks while driving and panic attacks at home.....it was a total nightmare for MONTHS (which honestly felt like years).

anyway  eventually i got better, but im not 100% back to normal.

when i look back now...i see why i am the way i am...

when i was young i was always a worrier......i remember my mother telling me that young boys like me shouldnt worry about such things.......and she was right......nothing was ever wrong nor was there anything even to even worry about....

and i believe that it was those years of worrying that somewhat have weakened my mind state today...

 

 


cybervato
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   Posted 6/15/2006 12:49 PM (GMT -7)   
Rock on Lyn! I totally agree about the music thing. I have only had a couple of panicky moments while driving Most of mine tend to come on when I am totally outside.

Worrying sucks!

Logix dont sell your self short by saying "weakened mind state". PAs suck!!!! we anxiety prone people are usually more intellegent more creative and more caring than most other people. we just have a predisposition to worry too much and criticize ourselves too much. I personally think we are probably mentally stronger than most because we can go through this stuff and not really "go crazy"

As for worrying I am a worry king at times!

I totally believe the PAs are because of nature and nurture! (genetics and environment) My Doc said quit asking why and try to learn to accept the past (mine was pretty crappy growing up)as you cant change that and focus on making your future better. He also said its not easy because it will bring up som rough emotions. regasrdless as I want to truly improve thats what I am going to be focusing reconnecting feelings and hopefully begin sowing more productive seeds for my future

logix
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   Posted 6/15/2006 2:42 PM (GMT -7)   
cybervato i hear ya...

but im just at a point in my life right now where i am so tired of having this disorder still in my life......

there are many priorities i need to take care of right now but havnt been able to fire up the strength inside to follow through with what i feel i should be doing..

take care

flowergirl2006
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   Posted 6/16/2006 1:25 PM (GMT -7)   
logix, I know how you feel. I, too, am sometimes so tired of the daily struggle to keep my sanity. My panic attacks are overwhelming and usually at night. My heart beats rapidly, I have trouble breathing or swallowing, my stomach cramps, my blood runs cold (or it feels like that), I start to feel disassociated from my body...I start to question whether I exist. That's the part that freaks me out the most because it is mental. The physical symptons I can live with, it's when I lose control and start questioning my sanity that I really start to panic and then all of the physical symptons become more intense. I manage to hang on until the feeling subsides and am so exhausted at the end of it.

I am not on any medication currently. I am bipolar and used to take meds for taht, but I've been off them for 1 1/2 years now. I journal my attack and write positive things and compare my life to those less fortunate who are strong enough to endure. I pray. I watch tv to distract me and then I finally fall asleep.

jsg118
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   Posted 6/16/2006 6:41 PM (GMT -7)   
flowergirl2006 said...
logix, I know how you feel. I, too, am sometimes so tired of the daily struggle to keep my sanity. My panic attacks are overwhelming and usually at night. My heart beats rapidly, I have trouble breathing or swallowing, my stomach cramps, my blood runs cold (or it feels like that), I start to feel disassociated from my body...I start to question whether I exist. That's the part that freaks me out the most because it is mental. The physical symptons I can live with, it's when I lose control and start questioning my sanity that I really start to panic and then all of the physical symptons become more intense. I manage to hang on until the feeling subsides and am so exhausted at the end of it.

I am not on any medication currently. I am bipolar and used to take meds for taht, but I've been off them for 1 1/2 years now. I journal my attack and write positive things and compare my life to those less fortunate who are strong enough to endure. I pray. I watch tv to distract me and then I finally fall asleep.


Hey there Flower girl, I've experienced the same thing, but it was lessen now, Im still on medications but on a lower dosage, it helps. To tell you briefly I had my anxiety year of 2000, the first two years was terrible I really cant go on with my life. I felt I'd lost so many years because of that, I havent seek any professional help just recently and I regreted it for not being able to talk to somebody about my problems. I hope you wont waste your time, get help, talk to anyone who you might think would help you and keep youreslef busy and pray, thats true. My faith helps me survive all those years. Goodluck to you.

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   Posted 10/6/2006 5:36 AM (GMT -7)   
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