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Aussieangel
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   Posted 10/6/2006 7:29 AM (GMT -6)   
From about lunch time today I noticed the anxiety building, though it seemed to die down as I walked the dogs.

I got home and went to rest for a couple of minutes when full on anxiety hit, that was about 5.30pm. I tried breathing and positive thoughts but it was like I was pinned to the lounge so scared and freaking out really believing this is it I'm going to lose it. Afterall how can feeling this awful mentally be normal. I then started crying and didn't stop for over a hour so I finally got some valium which barely helped. I ended up eventually ringing our mental health crisis team and he seemed to feel that I was in a massive anxiety swirl atm and it was so overwhelming I couldn't get out. He told me to take the valium to a full dose and ring my pdoc.

I still have my pdocs mobile and haven't seen her since she got me to cold turkey, I'm also waiting for a place in therapy so am feeling really scared and alone. My pdoc didn't want me to increase my avanza but to start taking valium 3 to 4 times a day at a regular dosage till I see her. (I'm still waiting to get an appoinment as she's fully booked out).

I took my avanza 1 hour ago and normally I'd be starting to unwind instead I can feel the panic/ anxiety starting to build up again. I just hate being like this it's 10.30pm now when will this stop?

My pdoc said to take some more valium at bedtime but I'm concerned at doing this with the avanza, how much can our minds take before we really do lose it?

tangerine bear
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   Posted 10/6/2006 7:53 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Aussieangel,

I'm so sorry you are going through this! You are NOT losing your mind, but I know what you mean. I am not familiar with Avanza, but as for the valium, it should calm down your attacks quite a bit. If you are worried about any drug interaction, call your pharmacist or one that's 24 hour (I'm not sure if they have those in AU.).
It sounds like you are really feeling bad, so if it were me... I would go ahead and take a valium as your Pdoc instructed. I'm sure she wouldn't have told you to take one at bedtime if it could harm you in any way, and it will probably calm you down. Please let us know how you are doing... (((((((Hugs))))))))

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normalsnofun
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   Posted 10/6/2006 8:01 AM (GMT -6)   
*BIG HUGS* hope things work out for you hang in there and keep us posted.
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Aussieangel
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   Posted 10/6/2006 8:27 AM (GMT -6)   
Thanks guys, I went and took a half dose (2.5mg) I'm starting to get tired so hopefully I'll be able to get some sleep soon.

My minds already telling me I'm going to need to go to the hospital tonight or else it'll start work on me tomorrow with a vengence. I always use to like having a real active mind, not anymore... it likes to play nasty games with me.

Physically I'm now getting the shakes and nausea from the anxiety so I really hope this is a one off. I'm definitely going to keep the valium up all day tomorrow.

Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/6/2006 8:47 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi there there is a med caled Trazadone and what it does is stops your mind from hving the "dand stinking thinking " goin thru it all night whilst trying to sleep "
Non addictive and non narcotic
I take this when I know I am going to have a bad night and for me it does work better than a valium during these times for sure
It works on the chemicals in our brains that wont let our mind shut off.........thus for me with a half hour to 45 minutes I can actually lay i bed and doze off w/o a problem
No hangover feeling and wake up really refreshed for me at least
Sorry you are dealing with this
Maybe a though AA........
Take care
Lyn
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Aussieangel
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   Posted 10/6/2006 8:03 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks Lyn,

I slept well once I crashed, I think my mind just needed a break. Of course as soon as I woke up the mind talk started and I could feel it was going to be another bad day. (I had 5 seconds where I was tossing up waiting to start on the valium today but once it started I got straight up and took some).

That still seems to be my problem, I'm scared of getting addicted and having to do a withdrawal off the valium so wait to the last minute to take some.
It's like when I have migraines I use to wait till the last minute and of course the pain meds didn't work by then, I've now learnt to take them when I need them early in the piece.

janetlee
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   Posted 10/6/2006 11:48 PM (GMT -6)   
Aussie,
I am so sorry that you are having to deal with this...!!! I can relate so very well to what you're saying! The anxiety comes on so strong that you feel like you are going to totally and completely freak out! When I get like that, I literally want to bang my head hard on the floor, over and over, til I am "dead". Of course, I don't...once, my mom walked in while I was freaking out and caught me slapping myself in the face with as much force as I could. I was doing it over and over. She screamed at me to stop it or she'd have me committed. She then made me promise not to do it anymore...that includes headbashing, so no "release" there....
You just keep up the valium to the degree that your pdoc will let you. You can't let yourself start worrying about "when I have to wean off"....please try to take it one day at a time. We luv ya and you are in our thoughts! :)
janet
Yesterday's dead
Tomorrow's unknown
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.
janet


Aussieangel
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   Posted 10/6/2006 11:56 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks Janet,

It brings me to tears to think of how bad it feels and while I wouldn't wish it on anyone I'm glad I found you guys because at least you all understand, you've described it so well.

I'm just going to have some lunch (I've just taken my second dose of valium) and then I'm going to make myself get out and do some gardening. It's beautiful and sunny and the sun is meant to help regulate the chemicals.... as long as I can stop my mind for a while.

Aussieangel
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   Posted 10/8/2006 7:12 AM (GMT -6)   
Well what a horrible weekend I've had.

Starting with Friday night and the overwhelming anxiety, I spoke to the crisis team and then my pdoc (who I honestly don't think remembers my case).

Saturday I was on valium 2.5mg 4 hourly and it was only taking the edge off the anxiety, today i was on 5mg per 4 hourly valium and was still a mess. The endless self talk about how I'm crasy I'm alone I'm sick I'm stupid etc.

It makes me upset for 2 reasons, the first obviously feeling like I'm losing it the second being I was trying to hide the tears and spinouts from the kids.
When my oldest was only 3yrs old and I had PND as soon as the tears started she'd be "It's time to take mummy to hospital again". sad My kids shouldn't have to deal with it, I shouldn't have to deal with it.
I'm so angry now, I thought I'd found a good doctor who was going to help me yet I haven't seen her in a month with no appointment still available and all she's put me through. Maybe she doesn't consider it a big deal stopping a med at 200mg daily after well over 6 years and leaving the person to cope alone but I sure do. Obviously the new med isn't working whether it needs to be upped to a higher level or whether it's just not working for me at all I don't know. That's what the doctors meant to be there for.

I'm going to ring in the morning and see if they'll have an appointment available if not I don't even want to think about my choices. Money talks and we don't have any so I guess if I have to go and pack a picnic lunch and camp at the local hospital until someone sees me I will.

I saw a few people I knew today and I couldn't do more then say hello as I knew if I stopped to chat I'd just burst out blubbering everywhere. There's still such a stigma attached and as we live in a realitively small community I'm not ready for the world to know yet.

Sorry for the rant, please just wish me well that I get someones attention and some help in the morning.

JKRsGirl
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   Posted 10/8/2006 9:07 AM (GMT -6)   
((Hugs)) AA,
Let us know how it goes. I'm praying that you get the help and answers that you need.
Life's a journey, not a destination ~ Aerosmith
A good friend is one who thinks you're a good egg even though you're half-cracked.


shell67
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   Posted 10/8/2006 12:14 PM (GMT -6)   
big hugs for you aussie, im sorry for all these bad things, but keep up some good thoughts, we are sending them to you ;) i hope tomorrow brings better things.
shell
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Aussieangel
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   Posted 10/8/2006 7:36 PM (GMT -6)   
Some good news at last.

The man from the crisis team (I'm sure I spoke to him 5 years ago when I had a massive panic attack and he spent an hour on the phone with me) spoke to the anxiety clinic that I've been waiting forever to start CBT with and they rang and I get to start on Wednesday. yeah

I wish there was more people like that in the mental health field.

Once my daughter gets off the phone I've got to ring the pdocs office and see if they've got anything for me yet, at least I'm now able to look to a more certain start at getting better.

JKRsGirl
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   Posted 10/8/2006 7:39 PM (GMT -6)   
That's great AA!
You have to tell us how it goes on Wednesday. Good luck!
Life's a journey, not a destination ~ Aerosmith
A good friend is one who thinks you're a good egg even though you're half-cracked.


Aussieangel
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   Posted 10/8/2006 7:43 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks, if I can't see my pdoc by then the staff at the clinic work in with pdocs at the hospital so at least they'll be able to advise me on meds.

janetlee
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   Posted 10/8/2006 8:27 PM (GMT -6)   
Aussie,
You've certainly been thru the ringer...it sounds like your pdoc is falling down on the job...at least you're finally getting the attention you need and deserve!!! Please let us know how it all goes! I go to my new pdoc for the second visit on Thursday...I am nervy about it, but I WILL let him know EXACTLY how I'm feeling! I'm going to put it all down on paper and have him read it. These docs may know about our illnesses/disorders/conditions, etc., but WE ARE the ones going thru it and we know our bodies better than they do, despite all their fancy degrees! So you hang in there and you do what you have to do to get better. If they won't listen, make them!
luv,
jante
Yesterday's dead
Tomorrow's unknown
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.
janet


Georgia5
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   Posted 10/8/2006 11:03 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Aussieangel,

Reading what you just posted hit home. This summer was horrible for me with anxiety and I can remember a few nights where I was lying in bed because I just needed to calm down and wham all of the sudden I was paralyzed with so much fear I could barely move. I would lay there in a ball praying the feeling would go away. My mind was racing; I was terrified and thought I would for sure go crazy. I was so exhausted when the attack ended and freaked out all night worrying myself sick when the next one would happen and if I was really losing control. Although my anxiety seems a bit better I still get moments of pure fear. As uncomfortable as it is its just anxiety. Try doing some relaxation to see if that helps calm you down. I'm so sorry you are having a hard night. Sending lots and lots of hugs your way and remember we are all her for you.

Hugs,
Georgia

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   Posted 10/9/2006 1:27 AM (GMT -6)   
((((Aussie)))) Big hugs and sympathy.  I really hope this gets better for you.  I've taken Avanza/xanax and valium all at the same time and been ok.  I wouldn't be overly concerned.  take what you need (as pre-scribed) to get you through. Trust me, you're brain won't break (just crack a little maybe lol) Big hugs

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