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dmb1975
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Date Joined Oct 2006
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   Posted 10/7/2006 3:29 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi All,
 I'm having a really hard time : ( You see I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder back in 1998. I had it way before then, but never knew what it was or that there was a name to all of the feeling that I was having. Anyhow, I went through therapy and over a period of about a year and a half the panic attacks were gone and I only had anxiety in certain situations. I was living wonderfully for about the last 5 years.
 Well, over the month of Sept. I was starting to have little panic attacks and started thinking that everything I felt was either heart disease, cancer, or something else awful! My husband started to notice that I was doing this again as did I. I went to my Dr. a week ago and he put me on Zoloft. Well, I had never and still hate the thought of taking meds (part of my anxiety) but I took it as he said, because i just felt like I couldn't fight this anymore...
 I took the Zoloft 50 mg for 3 days and then had a bad reaction to it. I started to feel really cold inside my body, feel very faint, etc. etc. I ended up in the ER and the Dr. said that I was having a reaction to the meds and to stop them and that I shouldn't take anymore SSRI's. So... he gives me a shot of Ativan and I calmed down. My husband took me home and the next night I still felt really sick and felt as if my blood pressure was high. I went back to the ER and sure enough my bp was high 201/100. Whew... I was told to sit and relax and all I could do was think that I was about to have a stroke! They gave me valium and a low dose of pb meds and sent me home again. Two days later I am BACK at the ER because I had a HORRIBLE panic attack and started to feel the whole right side of my body go numb! This time I got a really nice Dr. that took the time to sit and talk with me... He upped my bp meds to 50 mg. and said that had a panic attack and that I sounded as if I was depressed.
 (Mind you, my Dad has been living with us for 4 years, has been on the liver transplant list for 8 years and was just DENIED a transplant!) So... yes I have been under a lot of stress!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't want to lose my Dad, he is only 54! I'm 31 years old by the way...
 There is a lot more to the story... but as I sit here I am riddled with the sweats, head shocks, and just flat out panic...
 I've never been depressed before and it's so new to me... Does anyone ever get the feeling as if they are going to throw up, feel very faint, get sweaty feet and palms, cold flashes, hot flashes,  and mainly i keep getting chest pains and it feels as though it's like little shocks and then it goes away but right after it happens i get a boost of adrenline like...and just feel like no matter how many times dr.s tell you that you are panicing you FEEL as though you really do have like heart failure or some disease?
 I hate that this is back... I look at myself in the mirror and just cry! I want to feel myself again... I had to have my husband go grocery shopping with me last night i felt so helpless! I started to think that I was going to pass out and die! : (
 I go see my regular dr. on Thursday!
 I keep praying and praying to have my old life back... it's only been a week and though it feels like it's been so much longer!
 Do anyone of you ever chat? It would be nice to talk that way once in a while...?
 Take care everyone.
 Kelly
 

I_willconquer
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Date Joined Oct 2006
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   Posted 10/7/2006 3:48 PM (GMT -6)   
Kelly, stay positive(((((((HUGS)))))). You were panick/anxiety free for 5yrs, so that is proof that you can beat this again, after doing major research on this the past few days, some ppl don't even have a yr symptom free from this. Everything you have shared are some of the very same things others who've experienced panick attacks feel.

For example, I asked a question earlier today about High BP due to stress. You can prbly look over my past posts. I was stressing and having anxiety/panick attacks all last night thinking i was going to have a stroke or a heart attack, all bc I had a few high bp readings while I was stressed. Deep down I know i don't have heart probs, and that my bp is normal, but these pesky lil nerves like to remind us they are there. To tell you the truth, before i read your post i was starting to feel better(heart was pacing all day, very jittery) now that you wrote about YOUR bp issues, it kind of got me wondering again..but i WON'T do that to myself, and I will keep the peace that I once had. I mean literally....moments b4 I read this I took a deep breathe and thot...wow...IT'S GONE the anxiety is gone! What a great feeling. Sorry I'm rambling. Have you tried any of the homeopathic remedies? I'm not big on meds eityher.but like you...would go on them if I absolutely NEEDED to. I have found just as many positive(if not more) testimonials to natural herbs/capsules as I have xanax or anything else. I just bought 4various natural remedies today. Hang in there. Sorry to hear about your dad, we are about the same age, and so are our dads, so I can relate.

Post Edited (I_willconquer) : 10/7/2006 2:52:01 PM (GMT-6)


dmb1975
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Date Joined Oct 2006
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   Posted 10/7/2006 4:02 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks much for the post... I have been sitting here trying to talk myself out of feeling this way. I'm sorry that you were feeling better and then my post made you nervous... I have been doing the same thing... reading others posts and feeling good after reading some and then then there are the ones where i read that ppl have had ekg's and mri's and I am thinking OH my GOSH... I haven't! So, then I get thinking UGH. I will ask my Dr. to give me blood test and at least an ekg ( what is involved in one anyhow?) this Thursday... hope he will!
My Nurse in the ER told me about something called calms to take... ever hear of them. I did have to take 3 xanax over the course of this week... only ever took them to have a dental appt. or to fly on a plane... but this panic was out of control bad and so the only think that did work with calming me down was the xanax.
Thanks for the kind words about my Dad... It is the hardest thing that I have ever had to deal with... we have had HOPE for so long and now it feels as if it is gone. I still pray though... and know that God will help us all through this.
I would write more but it is hard to sit here still feeling anxious... I wish my mind would be clear again... I DO have hope that it will go away... my panic attacks and i wish the same for all of you. Thanks for writing me... It really did mean a lot to read your post. Helps to know that I am not alone.
Kelly

I_willconquer
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   Posted 10/7/2006 5:21 PM (GMT -6)   
No prob. It's nice to be able to talk to others who are going through or can just add a voice of support. Your BP being that high still may be due to stress. A lady that replied to one of my post has normal BP too, and mentioned hers being as high as 195/120 and it was bc she was nervous. I've had two EKGS 3yrs apart of each other, it was before I ever had a panic attack, so they ran normal, but who knows if I had to take one NOW with it now being a phobia what the readings would be. I went bc I was having chest pains, last winter(think the cold does it,or I pulled something) anyway, then my bp wa only 133/80 or so, and i thought THAT was high. Then when all the tests came back fine it went about 15pts lower. I also keep trying to calm myself by saying, so what if I have high BP, it's not a death sentence and can be controlled with safe meds. I think right now my body is just trying to come off my adrenaline high bc I do feel a lil better as time goes by. I'm praying for your dad!

Shebig
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Date Joined Oct 2006
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   Posted 10/7/2006 5:58 PM (GMT -6)   

Hi There

Welcome, I am pretty new here as well, I have gotten wonderful support from the people here. I can relate to the high BP, I don't get it like you do anymore, but at one time I was in ER constantly with high BP to the point that I would passout totally. I never thought I would live through that period in my life, but I did. I still have high anxiety and some OCD, but I am doing much better with medication. Try to remember you have been through this before and won, you can do it again, you do sound like a fighter. I am sorry to hear about your dad, I'll pray for him and for you to feel better soon.

Hugs Jude smurf


Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/11/2006 5:06 AM (GMT -6)   
WElcome .........I was just wondering on how you are now making out with all of this and hopefully you see and can feel the support here in this forum
Take care
Lyn
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Twiggygal
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   Posted 10/11/2006 2:40 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey there, I went four years without the disease... a panic attack here and a panic attack there and I wasn't on meds, but it resurfaced a few months ago, so yes I know what you're going through.

" I've never been depressed before and it's so new to me... Does anyone ever get the feeling as if they are going to throw up, feel very faint, get sweaty feet and palms, cold flashes, hot flashes, and mainly i keep getting chest pains and it feels as though it's like little shocks and then it goes away but right after it happens i get a boost of adrenline like...and just feel like no matter how many times dr.s tell you that you are panicing you FEEL as though you really do have like heart failure or some disease?"

I have the same exact symptoms too, so don't be worried.

I'm on Lexepro (10 MGs a day) and Ativan (two pills a day, both .5 mgs). It's helped a lot now that I'm on meds. But worrying something is wrong with me is always apart of the gig because I want to blame the physical symptoms on something else, and hope it's not the P/A, but it is.

Because I had it so many years ago, I simply knew that I was having P/A all over again, I just wanted to get on the meds immediately, because I was suffering.

Hopefully you're meds will help.

But I got the depression as well along with the P/A, and I never had been so depressed in all my life I don't think, but the Lexepro is helping with that too.

:)

Twiggygal~
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stronglady4me
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Date Joined Jul 2006
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   Posted 10/12/2006 12:27 AM (GMT -6)   
Anxiety has come and gone in my life and when I am dealing with it, it usually is related to stress. It was my body telling me that I have enough to deal with and I am on overload. Stay on your BP meds. I am not sure that any of us can talk ourselves out of how scary this feels. Thank goodness you had a doctor who really listened and knew what to do, they are worth their weight in gold.
Stronglady4me
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normalsnofun
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   Posted 10/12/2006 8:23 AM (GMT -6)   
Kelly sorry for the late welcome. You will/have find/found many wonderful people here. Enjoy the support and dont be afraid to say when you need a bit of a pick me up or have a problem.
--Michelle

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hunniebee
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Date Joined Apr 2006
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   Posted 10/12/2006 12:03 PM (GMT -6)   
Kelly I have every single one of those symptoms. I get them on a daily basis. I too was diagnosed a few years back. It was hell the first year and then it seemingly went away. Now its back with a vengence. I have gone to the ER at least 40 times. Everything sets me into panic mode. (mainly the physical twinges and weird feelings is what REALLY does it) I've been to Drs had tests run, been on meds..the whole 9 yards. Remember that what you are feeling IS real. That was what was so hard for me. They kept telling me its just anxiety/panic its not real. And i kept thinking ..what I am feeling IS REAL. It must be cancer, heart problems, blood clot...etc. The Symptoms ARE real. But they are harmless other then making us feel horrible. Panic cant kill you just make you feel like they are killing you. I am so sorry about your dad and no doubt the added stress is whats bringing this all back for you. Keep the faith that it will pass, or at the very least slow down some. I take ativan and only ativan. I hate meds because I am so super sensitive to them. But ativan seems to work wonders for me. I pop one when I am feeling the panic come on and in about 15-20 mins I am calm and relaxed again. Good luck to you ! You are going to be fine believe me. It just feels bad right now.
God Bless,
Julie
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