That is the way I feel most of the time. I don't want to get out of bed. If I could sleep all day, I would. I don't really care what is for dinner. I never taste it anyway and nothing ever sounds good. Sometimes I crave chocolate and carmel ice cream or maybe tapioca or rice pudding, but that's it. I don't fix the meals, my husband does. I usually don't finish because I'm full. I have diarrhea all the time. I have tension/chronic daily headaches which turn into migraine about 1/2 to 3/4 of the time. However, after I take my nighttime meds, I'm up nad want to watch tv all night, or read. I don't want to go in and go to sleep. I'm usually up until 1 or 2 in the morning, several times I've still been up when my husband is getting up to go to work. I'd rather spend my time doing nothing. It takes all my energy to do laundry (it was piled halfway up the wall and spilling out of our 2 hampers yesterday). I knew it needed to be done, just didn't care really. Finally decided I'd better or we'd be naked. I don't do the didhes or take out the trash, hubby does. I usually have no interest in talking to anyone, except you all here. I don't answer my phone, I avoid my friends alot of the time. Have lost 2 or 3 good ones because of this, they don't understand and don't know how to relate to me. I'm in school and it's what I wanted but now that I'm there, I can't do what I'm supposed to do until the deadline and then I'm rushing to get it done, procrastination is my name.
Looking at some of your other posts and having gotten to know you a little, I feel almost like we're going through the same things. I feel really close to you for some reason. I can't explain it, it's weird.
Just know that I care about you and I hope that you can get some answers from your doctor. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I started with anxiety about 2 months ago and the way you explain things has helped me understand some of the feelings I have. Mornings are my worst, I work and sometimes I just feel like I hide behind my desk hoping no one asks me what I have done that day.
Aloisia, I often wonder how other people manage to get through life when there are times when I find it so difficult, I think you are right that they just do do do to distract from any thoughts. I am a very deep, thoughtful person and sometimes I wish I wasn't because then I wouldn't worry myself so much!