Today i had one of many fights with my mom, this time it was over the phone, because i'm a real grown-up now with a real life and my own apartment and living miles away but it still feels the same. Two people would never fight so long and so often unless neither one of them were right, it's not that i didn't know (or at least asume) i was wrong, i just didn't know how before today. My mom yells at me because i want to do well acidemicly, and i've always been realy obessed with being smart and getting good grades, only i never have because I'm realy not that smart acidemicly. And my mom told me that if i was failing chemestry now then i should drop my "pie in the sky" dream about being a bioligest, she said i don't deserve to be in college if i'm going to fail my classes. She can be pretty harsh, but she's right in a way. She told me mabey i wasn't cut out for college, mabey i should just get a job. And i started cring and i told her i wasn't an imbosal, and that i deserve to be in college, because i'm not an imbosal, i'm not a failer. She told me no one ever said i was, she told me that there's nothing wrong with making an honest living. And then the strangest thing happened, my phone, without any warning, stoped like the battery died but it never beeped or anything. So i just took some time before i plugged it in, and for the frist time in my life i actualy thought about what she was saying. Because the only reason i set the stakes so i high is because i already know i'm going to fail, and i feel like if i started on the ground, i wouldn't have anywhere to fall. Because i never feel like i'm good enogh, so who knows how good at anything i realy am. And i know you all probably already had this realization...but it's just so new to me...and it feels to strange to finaly understand that. So i don't know where to go from here, it's just another begining i supose, i still want to do good in school, but i think now mom has a better understanding of me, and I seem to understand where she's coming from.