Just know that I'm thinking of you and I understand. You always give me fantastic advise and I hope that I can help you just a little.
Try a lavender bath. (or whatever scent you like) While you're in there, take some candles and light them. Listen to some very soothing music, sounds, whatever makes you calm. Turn off the lights. Lay there in the bubbles and try to erase everything from your mind. As you relax, concentrate on your feet and toes, imagine all the tension leaving, all the pain leaving, then move up to your legs, do the same, all the tension and pain are draining away, move up to your lower body and lower torso, do the same thing, feel the tension leaving, move up to your upper torso, feel the pain and tension leaving, move up to your neck and head, the pain and tension are melting away. As you relax, think good thoughts. Think of things or places that bring you peace. Mine is some deserted island with a waterfall and a big pool of water that I can dive into and just swim around in it. I can walk under the waterfall. I can hear the water all around me. Everything is green and all the flowers that are surrouning me are so full of scent that I just breathe it all in. Can you see it? You can use my place if you want. I'll lend it to you anytime you want. It's yours.
I hope you can feel a bit better. Try and be patient, this coming from the QUEEN of impatience. HAHAHA!!!
Love ya, Twiggy