Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Yes you will be stronger once you have gone through this trial, but I think you are allot stronger than you think you are. Your positive personality and strenght show right through the anxiety. When I need help my church is the first I turn to, and now I come here as well, the people here have been soooo good to me. I hope things get better for you soon.
I'm so sorry to hear your having to go thru all of this but your not alone. I have been reading all of these post from so many caring and supportive friends you have made here, so let all of us help you thru this fight back to the top. You will servive. God bless you and all.