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jordaNZone
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   Posted 10/22/2006 7:55 AM (GMT -6)   
When anxiety is at its worst for me..I detest mornings!
Here's how it is for me sometimes lol. (I am shakin my head in disbelief that the mind can do this to u sometimes!)
 
I lay in bed and listen to the birds chirping and am at peace...then reality kicks in - the clock radio bursts into life..uggh..another day at the 'saltmine' (already a negative thought grrr)..
Struggle out of bed..rip into the shower...gulp down some brekky coz I know I should (good grief I am a grumpy old bat! lol)..jump in the car and off down the driveway...sheesh no wonder I have a bad day!
But wait, it gets better lol...I work with someone who sometimes arrives on her 'broomstick' and  on other days arrives in her 'charriot' and couldn't be nicer.
On my way to work I do all the breathing exercises and the positive talk possible..
I get to work and scan the carpark...yup her car is already here..drat!
Oh well...deep breathing Maree..I get out of the car with 'lead' feet and shakey knees...and off I go!
 
Thank goodness it's not like this everyday! And now I have written it all down I am going to have a change in morning strategy..I dunno what it's gonna be yet..but I'm thinking lol.
 
How are mornings for you?
 
  

Suzy35
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   Posted 10/22/2006 8:28 AM (GMT -6)   
I want a morning where I'm happy to wake up and start my day! I usually wake up with a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, anxiety kicking in, so I lay there and try to calm mysellf. My oldest daughter is up and in the shower so I know the other two will be up soon, so I get up. Trying not to let the anxiety and depression over take me I come to my computer and see whats up. (In reality there are some boards I shouldn't visit because it just makes everything worse, but I have to know if there is any news)
I make sure all the kids have eaten and hair is brushed take the oldest off to school, come back get the youngest out the door. If I work that day I start getting myself ready. Breakfast for my husband and I, talk to him for a bit then get the middle one and myself into the car. Drop off my middle child at school and head to work. I enjoy my job and it helps keep my head busy so I don't let my doom and gloom thoughts take over.
On weekends I just find myself trying to NOT think about some things, but it usually doesn't work and I just let it take over. UGH

angela52884
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   Posted 10/22/2006 9:42 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello everyone! Mornings arent really that bad for me exect recently I have been waking up feeling a little jittery and I really hate that feeling, I feel like my mind wants to relax, but my blood is dancing around in my body or something. I really hate anxiety, and I hate the feeling of doom, but I really dont know how to get it out of my head.. sad confused

Twiggygal
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   Posted 10/22/2006 12:55 PM (GMT -6)   
Maybe you should talk to your coworker about how they make you feel hon. Maybe that would help the situation and ease the tension a bit?

I got jelly legs and panic attacks when I had to work in my former office until I quit a couple months ago. I hated that job because everyone attacked me all the time for no good reason other than they were greedy and wanted more money to be made even tho I thought I was at my highest point of making money for that company.

If they would have eased up on me, I might have stayed, but I couldn't tolerate it anymore. I work for a new company and like it so much better.... the stress is gone as no one is on my butt all the time.

So that coworker arriving on the 'broomstick' or the 'chariot' somedays was my old boss, and I couldn't take it anymore.

So I left the company.

Hopefully you two can work it out but I couldn't personally handle the stress.

Twiggygal~
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."

DX: Panic Disorder, Depression, TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder), Chronic Migraines
 
RX: Ativan/Lorazapam (1 MG a day), Lexapro (15 MG a day), Tylonel for the TMJ and Migraines
 



jordaNZone
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   Posted 10/24/2006 2:47 AM (GMT -6)   

Well twiggygal...got to work today and actually was feeling good, no uptight feelings, just decided that I have had enough of her mood swings really..anyhow, as predicted she arrived on her broomstick - but alas for her I was not buying into all that nonsense today...by lunchtime she had decided to chill out a little, which was good. I invited her to come over and sit with the others - she snapped in reply that she preferred her own company, and that's what she got. The rest of the day went ok..a little quiet at times..but for once I felt in control of the situation..wow!

Tomorrow is another day however..lol...will keep you posted. Thanx for everyones imput.

Maree

 


jordaNZone
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   Posted 10/29/2006 2:23 AM (GMT -6)   
Mornings are sooo much more bearable now...Mrs witchypoo I mentioned earlier has been moved on to another job now and I have a new workmate..thank goodness!
What a difference that has made not only to work but to my life in general!
I am starting to feel 'cautiously' GOOD! Yay for me!

Maree

Suzy35
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   Posted 10/29/2006 7:18 AM (GMT -6)   
That is so great Maree. I hope you enjoy your new workmate. Glad witchypoo has flown on out!

scaredycat
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   Posted 10/29/2006 9:28 AM (GMT -6)   
Suzy, I know that feeling, I wake up exactly the same way, almost 3 weeks on the lexapro and maybe I think I am getting better but still mornings are the worst and I too struggle with the weekends, as I am not nearly as busy, this in itself gives me anxiety, I start to try to plan a lot just so I will keep busy and stop thinking. I have a daughter also, 13, and I know the feeling of trying to not let them know. just wanted you to know you are not alone, I woke up this morning, and laid in bed a while making myself more anxious, but it helps to know I can come here and have someone to talk to that understands.

Suzy35
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   Posted 10/29/2006 9:35 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi scaredycat, these boards are like a lifeline for me alot of times. Until I get up the guts to "really" talk with my husband, this is where I get my main support. I'm doing ok this morning, made my honey a good breakfast and even enjoyed it myself. Just trying to hang on to the good thoughts.

scaredycat
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   Posted 10/29/2006 9:55 AM (GMT -6)   
glad you are having a good morning, I should probably do the same and make some breakfast however, eating has not been one of my strong points lately as I kind of feel sick all the time just butterflies in the stomach. does your husband not really know what's going on. It will help to talk to him if he is a good mand.

Suzy35
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   Posted 10/29/2006 10:24 AM (GMT -6)   
He knows, to a point. He is a wonderful man and he already has so much on his plate, he doesn't need my stuff piling it up more. He knows about the depression, he's the one who made me go to the doc, he knows a bit about the anxiety too. He doesn't know how deep it runs. I really don't know when to talk to him either, should I talk when I'm feeling better and more together, or should I do it when everythings is hitting and know exactly to tell him what I'm feeling right then.

andwes
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   Posted 10/29/2006 11:01 AM (GMT -6)   
I can really relate to that "morning" issue - I almost hate to fall asleep for fear of how I'll feel when Iwake up.I'm always jittering and anxious for at least the first hour or two when I wake, and even sometimes start to hyperventilate just from the anxiety. Usually I start to feel better after I'm up for a few hours but not always....sometimes the anxiety just continues through the day.  I went on Celexa last year (low dose) and thought it helped after awhile. Then I lost my insurance and stopped taking it for a few months and didn't feel any ill effects...and my anxiety didn't recur to any great extent.  Now I'm back on it and I swear I feel worse.....I waited another three weeks thinking it might take that long to take effect again, but it really feels like it's making me MORE jittery. I wonder sometimes how much these drugs really help or are they all just giving us a "placebo" effect.  Now I don't know whether to stop taking it again or just wait it out some more to see if it kicks in eventually.  Any thoughts?

scaredycat
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   Posted 10/29/2006 11:24 AM (GMT -6)   
I had the same reaction when I went back on the lexapro, being more jittery, I am going on 3 weeks myself and am wondering the same thing, seems a little better now but, I have some really bad days in there, just don't know if it is leveling, I actually dropped my dosage after 2 weeks because of it and now am back up to the 10 again after 5 days of dropping the dosage, the first 2 weeks were just awful but I am a little more calm now, not 100 percent but better so hopefully after a little while it will get better otherwise they are going to try zoloft, but hte lexapro worked great last time, I am just impatient I think, I want to be good now.

scaredycat
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   Posted 10/29/2006 11:26 AM (GMT -6)   
what made you go back on did the anxiety return? so funny, I do the same thing at night because I usually feel better at night and I wonder if I just stayed up all night if I would keep feeling better.

andwes
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   Posted 10/30/2006 12:39 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey scardeycat - Well this is how it all transpired....and this is how it ALWAYS goes for me. I had a terrible last six weeks  or so...my unemployment ran out, my car broke down so I couldn't job hunt and I was basically stranded (I live out in the country) fora month until my unemployment kicked in again.   During all that time I wasn't taking the Celexa because I basically couldn't afford it.  I was stressed to the max but wasn't experiencing what I consider "anxiety" feelings.  Once everything straightened out,  the car was fixed, the checks started coming in again, and I even landed a great temp-to-hire position....THAT'S when I fell apart and started having horrible anxiety again.....almost like Post Traumatic Syndrome or something.  I seem to always manage to get through these awful situations butonce they're resolved, I fall apart.  So I started  on the Celexa again and I swear I felt worse, more jittery, more anxious than before, etc.  I wasn't sure if it was caused by the meds, as they say it takes three weeks or more to kick in, and when I took it last year it seemed to help somewhat.  So now I've stopped taking it again and even tho I'm still somewhat anxious, I don't feel that horrible jittery feeling anymore.  I still believe that in my case I fair much betterwhen I'm on Xanax like I was years ago.  My problem is much more anxiety than depression but if I'm anxious long enough, I begin to get depressed.  Naturally, my doctor ( and most others these days) always want to prescribe antidepressants and pooh-pooh the Xanax saying it's habit forming.  Well I was on it for two years when I was in my twenties and then went off it with NO side effects.  It helped"calm" me which these other pills dont. It stands to reason if someone is truly depressed that they probably need a surge of energy to get them out of the depression and I think that's what causes the "jitters."  But when someone like me is nervous,jittery and anxious to begin with, I think meds like Xanax work much better.  Sometimes I think these doctors are just puppets of the drug companies who are ALWAYS pushing antidepressants.  Anyway, that's my story.
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