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Wazu
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   Posted 10/28/2006 4:10 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello, I just joined the forum today.  I've recently started seeing a psychologist and psychiatrist for my anxiety, which has been bad for about 2 years now.  I've been diaganosed with anxiety disorder, panic disorder, and depression, and am starting treatment with Prozac.  The anxiety is horrible, and I'm to the point where I can barely drive and every night am convinced I'm dying (I have a lot of physical symptoms of anxiety). 
 
My question is, Has anyone else had the issue that they are so anxiety-filled that they are afraid of medication?  I have for several years been very afraid of any medication (I rarely will even take a Tylenol).  I feel this way because I am so nervous and am so afraid of any change in how my body or mind feels, I am so sensitive to any tiny change, also very afraid of dying and convinced any medication will kill me.  Starting medication is really scary to me.  I took only 10mg of Prozac this morning, and tonight was convinced I had blurred vision, was about to pass out and difficulty breathing (not a new thing for me) - of course now I am calm and I am fine.  I just wondered if anyone else has this problem?  I know maybe it sounds silly, but its something that I've had a problem with for years, and why I never saught treatment earlier.
 
Thanks!!
 
WaZu...
 


normalsnofun
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   Posted 10/28/2006 4:59 AM (GMT -7)   
I know others on the forum have med fears. I personally dont take meds pretty much cause I fear them. I am sure others will be by to share with you soon.
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jordaNZone
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   Posted 10/28/2006 8:41 AM (GMT -7)   
I know medication is not for everyone - but I am on prozac and have been on and off it for the past 20 yrs.
Everyone has different side effects I am sure...but hey, you have suffered panic attacks etc for the past 2 years..do you think you could feel any worse for tryng medication that could help you feel better and give you a better quality of life?
I am sure you will find heaps of support and inspiration on this website.
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janetlee
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   Posted 10/28/2006 9:12 AM (GMT -7)   
Wazu,
I agree with Maree. Even though I personally don't have a med phobia, if you're going to feel like crap anyway, you may as well take your chances with the meds. At least there's a good chance that they'll start working and help you feel better! I'm the opposite from you and a lot of folks here about that...I'm MORE afraid of being anxious and depressed ALL the time, than fear of what the meds MIGHT (or might not!) do, so I'm happy to take the meds. I've read research about how hard it can be to with draw from some meds, but everyone is so different. I came off the Zoloft very well with the help of Prozac. I figure if the time comes when I need to come off Paxil, I'll do the same. I hope you can find the courage to take your meds! You'll be glad you did. Mine have save my life! Keep us posted and WELCOME! :)
janet
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Twiggygal
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   Posted 10/28/2006 11:57 AM (GMT -7)   
I suffered with anxiety for years and finally got on meds... I was also afraid of them.. after a bad reaction to Zoloft... but I found a medication that works for me.

I had the fears, and didn't believe in taking mood altering drugs... but when my mood was so awful.. I decided it was time. When I couldn't even leave the house barely let alone go to work... I knew I had to change something about my life...and that was one of the only answers I could come up with.

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scaredycat
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   Posted 10/28/2006 12:01 PM (GMT -7)   
janetlee, how come you take all the different meds, zoloft, paxil and prozac, don't they usually find one that works and stick with it. I am taking lexapro now took it a year ago and worked great, but this time not so great, just curious if that is why they keep switching you, do they not work the second time around, how come they gave you the paxil when coming off zoloft, that is what my doctor is thinking of switching me to if the lexapro doesn't start working soon, I am afraid of switching because it worked so good last time and no side affects and also afraid a different won't work and I will get more anxious that there is nothing out there that will help me. I go to counciling too but just can't seem to get back to me or even anything close. Last time the meds just let me sort the problems a little more clearly, I know they don't make them go away, but at least I can be more rational about them. thanks for listening

Shebig
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   Posted 10/28/2006 5:52 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Wazo

Welcome, I hope you enjoy the supportive people here. I am terrified of taking pills, especially anti-d's. I'm afraid they will make me feel wierd, ya like I don't already feel that way.

I look at it this way, afraid or not, these meds will help me and if they don't then I won't take them. It's worth trying the Prozac, it may help. It's nice to meet you.

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janetlee
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   Posted 10/28/2006 7:05 PM (GMT -7)   
scaredycat said...
janetlee, how come you take all the different meds, zoloft, paxil and prozac, don't they usually find one that works and stick with it. I am taking lexapro now took it a year ago and worked great, but this time not so great, just curious if that is why they keep switching you, do they not work the second time around, how come they gave you the paxil when coming off zoloft, that is what my doctor is thinking of switching me to if the lexapro doesn't start working soon, I am afraid of switching because it worked so good last time and no side affects and also afraid a different won't work and I will get more anxious that there is nothing out there that will help me. I go to counciling too but just can't seem to get back to me or even anything close. Last time the meds just let me sort the problems a little more clearly, I know they don't make them go away, but at least I can be more rational about them. thanks for listening
Hi, Cat!
Actually, I've never been on Prozac. But I was on Zoloft for 12 years, but then this year, starting in late January, I began having strong relapses of the anxiety for days or weeks at a time. This happened several times this year and I researched antidepressants online and found out that sometimes, they can "poop out". So I think that I became sort of immune to the Zoloft. I suggested this to my NP and she thought I could be correct, so she put me on Paxil CR and reduces the Zoloft. After weaning fromt ehZoloft, the Paxil Was increased. I think it is starting to work and I pray it continues!! yeah   If it don't, well, I'll be looking to get on something else. Interstingly, Lexapro is generally considered the overall best med for anxiety of the SSRIs. Oh well, at least we have options these days!!! Zoloft is a great med and is rated higher than Paxil, but after 12 years, I had to change. I have to say I'm thankful for such a long period of basically smooth years. I had some episodes, but they were generally short-lived. I wish you well and keep your chin up! Remember, if the Lexapro doesn't do it this time, there are several others that do well too! :-)
hugs!
janet
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Tomorrow's unknown
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.
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scaredycat
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   Posted 10/29/2006 7:42 AM (GMT -7)   
thanks janet, for the reassurance, I know I will get better, just want it sooner than later, I know I need to be patient, it has actually only been about 3 weeks now and I know they say sometimes 4-6 for the full affects so I will wait a little longer and in the mean time keep talking to all of you as it really does help and I would rather do that than take the xanax. I have it but only took it once but don't want to rely on it, would rather wait for the meds to kick in and handle life as it comes. hopefully they will soon, not sure if it takes longer when you restart them but have heard sometimes it does also playing withe the dosage a little, I was on 10 for 2 weeks went down to 5 because thought maybe it was too high as I was getting more anxious which I also hear can happen the first few weeks and now back up to 10 after 5 days, did you notice any of this the first few weeks, if it doesn't work I will try the zoloft, I heard that one was very good also just thought since the lexapro worked so well last time and not many side affects, Iwas hoping i would have the same result.

thank you so much for being here
have a wonderful day,
scaredycat.

Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/29/2006 12:25 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome to HW
alot of peeps have med phobias but I truly believe that most will tell you that once they get Kind over that fear /phobia and do take the meds they will start to feel loads better
Hoping you do stick around and see the care, support, and empathy there is here and how great the peeps here are
it is like a lil family here each other looking out for one another
be well and decide for yourself no one can force you only support your deciaion and give feedback as to how they overcame their fear/phobia
I do not take ssri's but do take fast acting short time meds to help me whe A/P is at its worst and rears its ugly head
I do CBT ,meditation relaxation and breathing techniques to help me thru most of it
Be well and keep posting
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Wazu
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   Posted 10/29/2006 11:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you soo much everyone for your replies!  I was excited to check the forum tonight and see if anyone had replied.  This forum helps me a lot.  Just reading through everyone's postings, on this topic and others, reassures me and takes my mind off of the anxiety I usually feel every night when I end up back in my room at the end of my work day.  I'm going to take the Prozac, although I haven't taken it the past 2 days, just the initial day, because I got scared.  Tomorrow I'm going to start again.  I think I already feel calmer after one dose, maybe its just a coincidence because the doctor said it will take weeks to feel a difference, but it makes me feel like, if i can just take the medicine for a while, and continue seeing my psychologist, and reading, maybe I can get through this tough time.  Things seem clearer, like I can see through the "cloud" a little bit.  Could it be helping a little bit already?  I'm very sensitive to medication. 
 
Again, thanks everyone for your help.
 
  
WaZu...
 


Wazu
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   Posted 10/30/2006 12:01 AM (GMT -7)   
Maree, I know you're right, I've felt like I was losing my mind for the past few years, when I'm to the point I don't want to leave my room or just walking around makes me feel dizzy...how much worse could it get?? I might as well try.
WaZu...
 


stronglady4me
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   Posted 10/30/2006 10:52 AM (GMT -7)   
I wasn't anxiety filled a bout taking meds. I grew up in a very strong, although emotionally repressed, family. My dad was a surgeon and the medical community was a big influence on all of us kids. I have also walked my own road in my life. I had home birth with both my kids. Wow, you should have seen the family fireworks over that one! My dad was cool if not approving, but my Mom blew a gasket! That is an aside, back to topic.

I had an early anxiety issue when I was 22 and at that time knew it was due to stess. I gutted it out and after only 8 years was well again (Only 8 YEARS!). A serious clinical depression hit me when I was 34. I was working for an abusive tyrant and had a lot of stess connected with raising my son. At the time I was working as an Instructional Assistant in elementary school (yes, the principal was the abusive tyrant) and one day I just couldn't stop crying. Bless her sweet heart, my mentor teacher took a huge risk and told me outright that I had a problem with depression and needed to get help. I took her at her word, cancelled all my classes and went to the doctor. I got lucky because my primary care doctor at the time was a wonderful woman who really knew about depression. She gave me a prescription and I took it. My issue was that notion that depression and taking the meds made me feel weak. After I was finished at the appointment I went out to my car and screamed my head off (sort of like primal scream therapy without the nudity). I hit the steering wheel of my car so hard that it actually bent. I bawled my eyes out. When I was done with all that I went home and told my husband. He and I went over to my parent's house and I told them. My mom of course went ballistic and then something amazing AMAZING happened. My quiet, never rock the boat father told my mother to shut up and listen for once. I told them that the thing I had to get over was that depression and medication does not make me weak. Getting help and being honest about what is going on makes me strong. I took my meds everyday for a year and a half. I honestly identified the issues that were in my way and wrote a 5 year plan and a 10 year plan for changing my life. I walked the road of my plan every single day and hit the 5 year moark right on th enose. 7 years into my 10 year plan I hit those goals.

This is a long way to say, "Take the meds, it will be the strongest thing you have ever done for yourself."

Good luck,
Stronglady4me
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Wazu
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   Posted 10/31/2006 12:58 AM (GMT -7)   
Thank you :) :) :)
WaZu...
 


scaredycat
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   Posted 10/31/2006 8:06 AM (GMT -7)   
stronglady,

which meds did you take and how did they affect you at first. so glad to hear you are doing so much better. you are all in my prayers. I have been taking lexapro 3 weeks, though, I think it is getting better, I still have a lot of anxiety and ups and downs wondering if this will level out soon.

take care of you.

stronglady4me
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   Posted 10/31/2006 10:31 AM (GMT -7)   
First I was on something that actually isn't prescribed anymore and I can't remember the name of it.  I took Lexapro this last time.  Everyone is different and I don't think it matters what I took.  It worked for me and we all have to work with our doctors to find what works for us.
Stronglady4me
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