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hunniebee
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Date Joined Apr 2006
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   Posted 11/3/2006 5:41 AM (GMT -6)   
I dont know why or what brought this on tonight..other then I am up later then normal. But i tried to go lay down and go to sleep and my heart is racing and im shaky and my hands are sweaty..im dizzy, i feel like i cant breathe, my eyes are a little blurry, i keep getting chest pains. Butterflys in my stomach( and not the good kind) I feel like i wanna vomit. Weird sensations all over my body.
 
I just cant handle this anymore. I want to run straight to the ER but i dont wanna wake up my fiance or my best friend when I know down deep its probably just anxiety. I mean it feels like anxiety but my head keeps sayin theres something really wrong. So instead I am here posting to ya'll. I took more ativan then usual tonight about 2 mil. Its not really helping all that much. Although I just took another half so i am hoping it will do the trick. Even as im sitting here my stomach and heart feels like its doing flips. I just dont know how much longer i can live feeling like this. What kind of life is it to have where you are a constant mess and in fear something is wrong with you. Ive gone to the drs my blood work comes out fine. Other then slightly high cholesterol and low good cholesterol. My EKGS are fine just fast..but what if they are missing something. I just feel like Im gonna drop at any minute and I dont want to leave my kids. And I know Im not right with God so where would I go if i did die. I just want these thoughts and physical things to go away. Sorry ya'll just needed to talk to someone that would get it. Im sure ill be okay. I hope..im tryin to believe it.
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Howlyncat
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   Posted 11/3/2006 5:51 AM (GMT -6)   
Hey sweetie
God knows whats going on and never ever think you are not right with HIm
I am so sorry for all the pain and sadness the hurt and wanting to "just give up and give in " feelings I am getting from your post ....not the ending of it all
I feel you pain I honestly do
I too have been up thinking about many thinga all night and I find that perhaps we are up to talk to one another ya know support and keep letting it out
'
I know you will be okay and
I know so will I ........
Remember those kids think you get up way before the sun to let it out to shine they love you unconditionally......always will
Thats the greatest gift a woman has IMO...........
Stay strong sweetie and I will do the same 'know I hear you for sure and that i can hoonestly and truly understand your PAIN
be well my nightime friend rest and tomorrow will be better for both of us I am sure ..........
Thinking of you
Praying for you as well
Luvs
Lyn


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smiler
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Date Joined Sep 2006
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   Posted 11/3/2006 5:57 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi Hunniebee ,

Will you do some deep breathing with me?

You are NOT going to die and even if your not right with God , you know he NEVER turns people away.

My thoughts and prayers are with you Hunniebee.
 
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angela52884
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Date Joined Sep 2006
Total Posts : 133
   Posted 11/3/2006 10:29 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi hunniebee, I was just wondering how you were feeling today?? I know exactly how you feel, I have had tests and stuff too and so far they have been normal, its really frustrating when they tell you there isnt anything wrong, because i find it really hard to believe that our minds can do this to us. My hardest thing is when these things happen out of nowhere, I just hate it, if there were something that was making me anxious it would be different than nothing at all. Well please let me know that you are ok! I really hope you feel better!!!
 
                                  Angela

MsKittie
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   Posted 11/3/2006 10:48 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi hunniebee

Sorry to hear you are having to go thru this. There have been many times I have had to rely on my sons for my strength. I know no matter how old they get they still need me and I need them.

One of the things that helps me out a lot at night when I can't sleep because of the anxiety or even thru the day I will pull out the family photo albums and look at them..I find it to be very calming and relaxing. They also remind me of tougher times I have over came thru the years and gives me the strength to keep fighting.

I will keep you in my prayers and I know in my heart you will get thru this. We are all here for you.


(((HUGS)))
   MsKittie
 
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I have an illness, My illness don't have me.
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Dillon
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Date Joined Sep 2006
Total Posts : 46
   Posted 11/3/2006 11:49 AM (GMT -6)   
Hunniebee...
 
I have been exactly where you are..along with many trips to the ER because i actually thought i was going to have a heart attack and die and being raised in a very strict church one of the first thoughts that ran thru my head What if i am not right with God and ready to go it is very scary. I have had every test you can think of all negitive but the fear still shows it's ugly head and brings along with the "What If" monster...What if this time it is different... What if it really is a heart attack...What if the doctors missed something...What if ...the list goes on. The one thing that has helped me is I tell myself this one truth "OK I am having an anxiety/Panic attack I have been here before nothing happened to me then and nothing will happen to me now. No one has ever died from having an anxiety/panic attack and neither will I" Sometimes easier said than done..I wish i could be there to hold your hand and help you thru...I know what it feels like to shake all over and have that weird feeling run thru your chest to have sweat litterally running down the sides of my face to have the feeling your heart is skipping beats or flopping around in your chest and being so scared there is no way to describe it.
You will make it...I will be praying for you...and remember..God says all that come to me i will in NO way cast out.
 

normalsnofun
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   Posted 11/3/2006 12:06 PM (GMT -6)   
Hunniebee,

You will be ok...hang in there. We do know how you feel and can relate. I was up later than I should have been last night doing the anxiety thing. It was well after midnight before i got to sleep and I was up at 6 for work.

Angela,

If you dont think your mind is capable of this anxiety stuff try thinking about bugs and how they move and crawl and tell me you dont get an itchy feeling or the hee bee gee bees like they are crawling on you. THEN tell me your mind cant do the anxiety stuff.
--Michelle

...I dont want the world to see me, 'cause I dont think that they'd understand
When everythings made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am..."
--Goo Goo Dolls

"Those who are different change the world,
Those who are the same keep it that way."

“We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.”
--George Bernard Shaw


Howlyncat
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Date Joined Jan 2005
Total Posts : 24909
   Posted 11/3/2006 7:27 PM (GMT -6)   
Hoping you feel the love and support hunnibee

Angela I totally agree with Normol this
Anxiety PLAYS havoc with our minds
Lyn
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MsKittie
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Date Joined Jul 2006
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   Posted 11/3/2006 8:40 PM (GMT -6)   

Hello Hunnibee

Yes it can Lyn...that's why I stay away from looking us symtems on the internet you will start amagining the wors of everything.


(((HUGS)))
   MsKittie
 
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*  
I have an illness, My illness don't have me.
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jordaNZone
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   Posted 11/3/2006 9:47 PM (GMT -6)   
You really are ok hunniebee...just take a step back...youu've done everything right..you've been to the doc and had bloodtests etc and everything has proven to be fine...relax
you have reached out and asked for help - good choice!
See, you are doing really well!
Distraction is good..choose to do something that makes you happy!

Maree

nbg
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Date Joined Nov 2006
Total Posts : 3
   Posted 11/3/2006 10:25 PM (GMT -6)   
Hunniebee,
your post really went to my heart. I've been there so many times, suffered from anxiety and panic attacks for years. the worst one (I will never forget) happened when I was driving in heavy traffic and there were crazy drivers all around me. Vision blurred, heart pounding, drenched in sweat, I thought I was going to die in an accident right then. I had to pull over on the freeway (*not* allowed) and just sat there shaking and crying. After that, I went to a hypnotherapist for a while and it helped but when I moved it all started up again. I hate using meds and the way they make me feel, and found some subliminal music that has been working wonders for me. I am not taking any meds, but I haven't had a panic attack in weeks and am really beginning to believe I can live a happy life whereas before I never believed I could ever feel "normal". I don't know if we are allowed to say a brand name (I guess I'll find out if this gets deleted, LOL) but I found them on the internet. They're called Love Your Life and Release and Relax by The Ultimate Healer. Take comfort that your health really is fine, and I hope you find a method of relief that works for you.

myhope
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Date Joined Nov 2006
Total Posts : 1
   Posted 11/3/2006 10:30 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey Hunniebee,
I definitely can relate with what you are feeling right now. You are good at describing your feelings and it was amazing how it seemed like you were describing how I seemed to feel during high school when I struggled with depression, ADD, anxiety, insomnia, and migraines. I was at a pretty low point, had almost committed suicide and I felt like I was drowning. I felt deeply that something was not right and I kept fighting to find those answers. I have a deep faith in God and I believe that the Lord wants us to experience joy and happiness in this life. If that is the case, how come I felt so absolutely unhappy and unwell and selfish? I was so sick all the time that I felt I could not be a blessing to others...instead I felt a like a huge burden. It was awful. But I still believed God was aware of me and wanted me to be happy. I came to the conclusion that if God was my Creator, then He knew what was wrong with my body, He knew my exact chemistry, and He would guide me to those answers. A friend told me about a nutritional supplement that totally changed my life. Within a month of taking it, I was sleeping deeply through the night and waking up early refreshed, my concentration had dramatically improved, my binging and eating was no longer an issue and I was much more emotionally stable. Within two months of taking it I started weaning off my medication, something that I had wanted to do but felt that I couldn't before. It took me 7 months to wean off one and a year to wean off the other one. That was hell. But I was determined to do it. I have been medication for almost 2 years now and I feel like a normal person again! I cannot tell you how grateful I am and how much I have worked for my happiness and health, but I share this with you to give you hope. If you are scared and you do not always want to be where you are at, feeling the way you are, you do not have to be. It is not easy, but if you knock, it shall be opened unto you. I know this to be true. It's my sincere desire that my own pain will be someone else's hope. God is mindful of you. He knows your fears, your concerns, and every thing that you experience. Hang on to every little shred of hope that come your way. I will have you in my prayers.
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