Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 11/7/2006 10:37:39 AM (GMT-7)
Welcome to the board. I too also suffer with OCD pure obsessions thoughts that get stuck in my head over and over. And the need to constantly check. When I was younger I had to make my bed a certain way or I thought something horrible would happen to my family. As I got older I had thougths that I might have ran someone over while driving and would have to drive around a few times to make sure. I constantly check doors, irons, stoves to make sure that they are off. There's times i've checked them over and over when I know i've turned them off and have turned around while driving to work to check because i'm terrified I had left something on and the house would burn down and still called my boyfriend to check once again. I also suffer from generalized anxiety disorder and panic attacks. You will find great comfort in the board there are wonderful people that understand what you are going through.
Bloom, I am 22 and I have had OCD, depression, and anxiety since I was 11. I am currently going through EXACTLY what you are. I worry about the future and dying. I feel like im getting older too fast. I dont count or touch things like I used to with the OCD but I still have some rituals and ticks. I've been on paxil for a long time for the OCD and things have been much better.
However in the last 5-6 monts i have been getting terrible anxiety. I dropped out of college and now i just work full time. My days are contantly plagued by all these fears and thoughts. Thoughts of going crazy...losing control...anxiety about anxiety, depression about anxiety, lonliness because I don't socialize 1/10th of what I used to. I always feel like i'm not percieving the world the way I'm supposed to...and sometimes I feel unreal and freaked out. I take xanax for that but even when im not having an anxiety or panic attack i am still thinking about it all the time.
Take care and keep posting