help i feel so alone with this

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scared of all
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Date Joined Nov 2006
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   Posted 11/6/2006 12:59 AM (GMT -6)   
I had a nervous breakdown at the end of August and my doctor took me off work.  Well I've become a recluse.  I hate to go places -- I go because I have to.  I have a husband and child to take care of still.   I'm so scared all the time but i'm not sure exactly what i'm afraid of.  The only time I feel safe is when my husband is around.  I keep getting these feelings of extreme dread like something bad is going to happen.  Now mind you ---- my dad died in july, my step dad has been real ill.  My parents live out of state and so does my sister. 
I was doing ok with eveyrthing going on figured it was an emotional thing and it would pass, but 2 weeks ago I had another nervous breakdown and was so scared that I was going to do something stupid and
 
I need to know if I'm the only person that feels like this and if I'll ever be me again.
 
I would appreciate any help.
 
Thank you
Post edited to due content of self injury self harm
Please seek professional help immediately
I am sure there are crisis centres or mental health clinics in your area
I am SO SORRY that you are going thru this and I hope that because I did have to edit your post it will not stop you from staying with us ..........This is a fantabulous support group and has great peeps that KNOW what you are going thru:: have been there .....Are there
I dont want you to do anymore to cause yourself any injury so please do seek some help we will be here for you as a support system and a SOFT pillow to land on hun..........
IF you need to talk all my info is under my name PLEASE get in touch with me ....I am always on in early am ( about 4 430 as well ) okay
PLEASE take care and know we are here for you ........LYN....STAY with US PLease

Post Edited By Moderator (Howlyncat) : 11/6/2006 6:10:40 PM (GMT-7)


Wallygirl
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   Posted 11/6/2006 1:56 AM (GMT -6)   
Sweetheart,

Please call your doctor tomorrow and tell him about this.

Your anxiety & fears are so very understandable considereing your family situatio, but you MUST do this for the sake of your husband & especially your child. I know you must feel like you're working without a net, but you aren't.

Help them to help you

jordaNZone
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   Posted 11/6/2006 2:09 AM (GMT -6)   
You poor darling..you must be full of sadness and hurting really bad on the inside..wallygirl is right - please call your doctor - I know it's hard, but you've made the first step in the right direction today by reaching out for help on HW.
I wish you well..please keep us posted so we can be your other support system..we all really care and will want to help I am sure.

Maree

hopefulmigrainer
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   Posted 11/6/2006 2:14 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi.  You are doing the right thing by reaching out here.  My heart goes out to you and I will pray for you.  You must not allow this to go untreated.  Are you taking medication and are you in counseling?  You need a lot of support right now and your deserve to be happy.   What is a nervous breakdown?  I've often wondered what this is.  I have been extremely depressed with suicidal thoughts and excessive crying.  Whatever it is it is your SOULs way of saying I need help.  Please get that help for yourself so that you can be there for your family - they need you.  Also, burning yourself with ciggerettes is self harm.  It is an outward manifestation of the pain you feel inside.  That pain needs to come out and you need a safe environment to let it out.  Perhaps a group of supportive individuals.  I go to a recovery group at my church for Depression and Anxiety and 2 of the members there have done similar things to themselves.  Nobody judges you, they just care and that's what you need right now.  Don't wait.  Call your doctor tomorrow and make an appointment with a psychologist.  I hope that you feel better. 
Talk2Kel 
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janetlee
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   Posted 11/6/2006 2:15 AM (GMT -6)   
Dear Scared,
It sounds like you may have GAD (generalized anxiety disorder). You can research it on the 'net. There are meds to help you thru this as well as counseling. PLEASE seek help ASAP. There's no need to suffer insilence, cuz there IS help to be had! Please keep us posted! We do care!
HUGS!!!
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scared of all
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   Posted 11/6/2006 10:04 AM (GMT -6)   
I've seen the doctor several times.  He put me with a psychiatrist that sent me to group therapy.  Group didnt work out because all i did was absorb all of their problems worry about them and not talk about mine.  I see a new pyschiatrist on the 15th and am requesting some one on one thereapy.  They have me on cymbalta and ativan and zyprexa so i'll sleep at nite.  I'm trying to get help I really am but it just seems like everyone tells me that its grief and I just need to get on with my life.  I feel like most of my friends and family just dont understand.   My husband is being great.  He's been so understanding and has taken on a lot of the stuff I normally do.  I just feel like nothing is helping right now.  Maybe the new psychiatrist will help.   Thanks for all the posts --- its nice to know people understnad.

lilsismj
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   Posted 11/6/2006 10:41 AM (GMT -6)   
you are not alone. All of us are, or at one point have been, where you are. I am having a tough time myself recently. We are not alone. Many people suffer and many people find help. We will too. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

MsKittie
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   Posted 11/6/2006 10:59 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello scared 
 
Welcome to HW you will find pleanty of careing and supportive members here and it won't take long for you to call all of us your friends and HW family so please post often and your always welcome to come and chat in live chat.
 
I'm so sorry we all have had to meet like this and you are having to go thru this. It sounds like you have really been put thru a lot Big (((Hugs))) hun. Your not alone fighting this monster.
 
It is so nice that you are reciving great support from your hubby that can make a lot of differance in your recovery please try to stay strong you really are going a great job.
(((HUGS)))
   MsKittie
 
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spicegirl479
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   Posted 11/6/2006 11:15 AM (GMT -6)   
Usaully when under alot of mental strain happens anxiety occurs i went through the same thing wasnt sure what i was scared of afraid that i would never be the same again its a scary thought but believe  me you can overcome this, i  AM a better person from having panic disorder becuse now i know that i have to put certain issues in my life right.Go see a doctor but before he thows medicines at you ask tobe refered to a specialist who will educate you on the situation, and dont do too much internet surfing becuse everyone is different and it may get too much (tempting as it is!) take care and let us know how you get on, be patient it will take time cool

normalsnofun
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   Posted 11/6/2006 11:21 AM (GMT -6)   
It is a rough place to be in. Hang in there we are here for you. Glad to see you are gtting the help you need.
--Michelle

...I dont want the world to see me, 'cause I dont think that they'd understand
When everythings made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am..."
--Goo Goo Dolls

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Those who are the same keep it that way."

“We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.”
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Howlyncat
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   Posted 11/6/2006 8:07 PM (GMT -6)   
Hun I just had a major Meltdown not long ago .....
I lost my Mom almost 9 months ago and have lost many loved ones as well thru the past yrs a son included ...........Grief causes lots of things but I feel that you need a better support group or perhaps a cousellor you can relate to and really open up too
Just my opinon hun
Please stay with us okay
Contact either by email or add me to msn or yahoo and I will be happy to talk to you
You take care please
Luvs and Healing Energy
Lyn
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dmb1975
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   Posted 11/6/2006 10:16 PM (GMT -6)   

sad  Hi. Wow, I am in the same place as you are right this very minute.

I have a terminally ill father living with me and my sister is living with us to help

out too.

My Dad has been getting worse over the past few weeks. I have been diagnosed with

Panic Disorder/Depression. Mind you, I had Panic Disorder years ago... and just delt with basically

anxiety until until now... Now, I have MAJOR Panic Attacks and now Depression. My Mom took

time off of work and came up to help out. I feel like I am falling apart and feel so alone. I have

never felt like this before and it is really hard feeling like this all the time. I find myself counting

down the weeks of me feeling this way.

 I have a husband and a son to take care of and I am finding it so hard to do all of the simple

things.

 I have been to the Dr. numerous time over these past 5 weeks and they all say to see a

therapist... which i'm doing. I tried Zoloft for 4 days and had a reaction to it... I really feel

like I want to try something else like Lexapro... or something.

 I also feel like I am better when my Husand is home... I am not wanting to drive as much as

before, I obsess about having an illness ( from the physical symptoms), I feel like I just want

to lay down and sleep, I feel bad like I am a burden to my family. I was the one who did

most everything and now i can't do half of what i once did.

 I just wanted to write and tell you that there IS someone going through the same thing you

are... If you ever want to exchange e-mail address' let me know. It would be nice to chat

back and forth with someone going through something similar.

 Take care of yourself and God Bless.

         *Kelly*


dmb1975
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   Posted 11/6/2006 11:10 PM (GMT -6)   
hi again...
i didn't read anything in the red writing...
and then when i just went back... i
don't have the 'hurting myself" thing. I'm
very sorry that you do... i will keep you in
my prayers tonight.
 

hopefulmigrainer
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   Posted 11/6/2006 11:42 PM (GMT -6)   
You are not alone. Check out these websites and make the call. Please come back and tell us how you're doing.

For more information on self-injury and resources contact:

1-800-DON'T-CUT (800-366-8288)

SAFE Alternatives Program

Website: www.self-injury.net

Website: Self-Injury: You are not the only one. www.palace.net/~llama/psych/injury.html
Talk2Kel 
DX: chronic migraine, cervical degeneration, depression/anxiety 
RX: Wellbutrin, Lexapro, Soma, Immitrex 
"You don't find out that God is all you've got until God is all you've got."


normalsnofun
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   Posted 11/7/2006 9:54 AM (GMT -6)   
Thanx for the resources helpful.
--Michelle

...I dont want the world to see me, 'cause I dont think that they'd understand
When everythings made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am..."
--Goo Goo Dolls

"Those who are different change the world,
Those who are the same keep it that way."

“We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.”
--George Bernard Shaw

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