Thanks to all who responded. It seems to me, that I have both anxiety and depression, since I tend to avoid things that cause me anxiety and also tend to focus on all the negative things that have happened or could happen. I've started to read a book entitled "What Would Aristotle Do?", which looks at how rational thinking can solve emotional problems. I've only gotten through the first two chapters or so and it seems pretty interesting, but it's kinda hard to get excited about, since its more theorical than anything.
On a postive note, I did write down a list (in order of priority) of the things that I want to work on with my therapist. But, my next appointment isn't until next Wednesday.
I also recently got a bill from my health insurance saying that they hold the right to determine how much they will pay and they have determined that they will not pay $x amount. What a crock of ****! I mean it took a lot of courage to call up different therapists, find someone that I got along well with, and actually follow through with an appointment. To not pay for a visit, just seems ridiculous to me, especially when I called the insurance company before I went to my first appointment to find out all of the details (like how many times I can go, if my therapist needed to submit a treatment plan, etc.) I was told that I had a great plan and I can go as many times as I wanted and when I got close to the maximium number of visit they would let me know! So, it seems absolutely ridiculous not to let me know they won't pay until now, since I've been seeing the same therapist for 4 months! I've tried to call the insurance company a bunch of times, but I just keep getting a busy signal. GRRRRRRR!
I'm more frustrated than anything right now, so thanks for listening. Hopefully I can get the insurance thing straightened out before my next visit, cause I can't fork over a bunch of extra money to keep going!