Leary of feeling better

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Suzy35
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   Posted 11/9/2006 4:11 PM (GMT -6)   
Why am I leary of feeling better? The upping of my meds has seemed to help alot and I'm not feeling the depression or anxiety quite as much, but now I feel like if I relax it will all come rushing back.

I feel like I need to be ready for it. The job has been good, they have me working all five weekdays this week, I am so ready for the weekend. tongue I want to believe I am starting to get better, but just don't want to be unprepared.

I'm so good at borrowing trouble.

Mooney123
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   Posted 11/9/2006 4:15 PM (GMT -6)   
I am also always on my guard when it comes to feeling better. You never know with this panic disorder thing..It sucks to feel good and then have a jolt of anxiety hit you. If you're always in that state (it sucks too) but at least you're used to it.    

Suzy35
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   Posted 11/9/2006 6:53 PM (GMT -6)   
Yeah, it's almost like I don't want to feel good at times, because when the "bad" hits, it's so awful. I've had a headache all day and it doesn't help either.

Georgia5
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   Posted 11/9/2006 7:02 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Suzy,

I have been scared to feel better. This summer I was suffering from anxiety everyday. My anxiety became so constant that if I had just a moment of peace I would worry now what is wrong with me. It’s strange I know because I truly wanted to feel better but I was used to the constant anxiety. Well after being put on Celexa I started to feel better and the anxiety was down. At first it was strange and then after a few days I was relieved. Well as it goes my anxiety did come back I would say it hasn't been as bad as this summer but it's there. I think with medication we will still have our moments of anxiety it just isn't so constant and that’s where we have to find other tools to cope with the anxiety.

hugs,
Georgia

Patty B.
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   Posted 11/9/2006 7:55 PM (GMT -6)   
We've been burned too many times to trust our OK times.
I totally get the 'what's wrong with me now' thing. eyes :-)
Patty B.

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MsKittie
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   Posted 11/9/2006 8:51 PM (GMT -6)   

I know how you all feel but I have learned that even thou the bad will come back I'm going to enjoy the good while it last. It may ba for a day it may be for a week but I'm going to take full advantage of it.

Hope you all have a good day soon.


(((HUGS)))
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jordaNZone
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   Posted 11/9/2006 9:11 PM (GMT -6)   
Glad you feeling 'cautiously' better suzy...now's the time to praise yourself for feeling better and coping..you have done really well to get this far..well done!
Maybe the anxiety thing will come back or maybe not...take each day as it comes..think happy thoughts and enjoy :)

Take good care.
Maree

Suzy35
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   Posted 11/10/2006 1:22 AM (GMT -6)   
I'm pretty much living day by day, taking them each as they come. I'm trying to not think to far ahead into the future, that's usually what gets me into the most trouble.
I've been doing alot of sleeping in the evenings, I don't know if it because I'm tired from my job, or just trying to keep my anxiety away. I sleep for a few hours in my chair, then get up and get a few things done before going to bed.
I have started writing my thoughts in a journal, hopefully I can keep on doing that.

jordaNZone
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   Posted 11/10/2006 8:07 AM (GMT -6)   
Writing in a journal is a great idea - good thinking! Later on you will be able to look back and remember how brave you have been and how well you coped :)
Sleeping = chilling out, relaxing, meds working well, and healing..all good I reckon..you are doing well.

Take good care.
Maree

Suzy35
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   Posted 11/10/2006 9:26 AM (GMT -6)   
I'm sitting here getting myself all worked up again. I keep finding myself reading anything I can on the company my husband works for, pretty much waiting for the big shoe to drop and for all my worries to come true. I can feel myself thinking about "ways out" and I need to refocus again. Guess I'll get off of here and go get ready for work.

jordaNZone
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   Posted 11/10/2006 12:08 PM (GMT -6)   
Suzy..apart from the dreadful anxiety thingy and doom feeling etc. which we all do sooo well at times..I am wondering if there is an underlying problem in your life that you can work towards fixing?
Or have you thought about having some counselling? Sometimes this can put our worst fears into perspective...
Or maybe you could do a course, or take up a new hobby...anything different really to get the brain from dwelling on how you are feeling right now..
Hope you are feeling better soon.
Maree

Suzy35
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   Posted 11/10/2006 10:00 PM (GMT -6)   
I know some, if not alot, of my problem is how we lived when I was a kid. We had times where we had plenty of money, and times where we were living without power or heat. Or getting evicted from our home and having to live with friends or family. Or we would be sent to our Grandparents for Christmas because my parents couldn't afford to get us anything. The list goes on.
I am scared of having to live that way and don't want to put my kids through it. The thought of my husband loosing his job terrifies me to no end and I think about us loosing our home, our lives, ect.
I don't know how to fix that, cuz it's always a real possibilty. I just can't stand the thought of it and that is where my anxiety and depression come in.
Thanks for the support Maree.

jordaNZone
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   Posted 11/11/2006 3:37 AM (GMT -6)   
You are welcome suzy :)
I can understand your concerns especially after what you have been thru in your childhood...for some reason when we are 'down' fears and anxietys come flooding back...
Can you imagine packing up all these childhood memories, fears and anxietys and putting them into a large box...next, get some string and tie the box securely and put in the back of your wardrobe.
This is what you have to do so you can get on with your life as it is today..hope you can understand my ramblings lol.
If at any time you and your family have to go thru all the hardship you describe..you can draw on these memories and use them in a positive way..you will know instinctively what to do to survive, and you will know what decisions are best and what not to do too...

Hope this helps..I am no expert...just someone who has done some long miles in my life..just like you suzy.

Maree

Suzy35
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   Posted 11/11/2006 9:03 AM (GMT -6)   
I've been marred almost 19 years and this is the first time I've had to really deal with all of this. I have always been able to be more positive about things and how they may work out. Now it's all different, I can't seem to think of the positive or the "it will all be ok". For the past three months or so, it's just been how bad it could be.
I know that I'm just borrowing this trouble, because it could all be ok, but for some reason I can't seem to accept that. I just don't believe that it will be ok, all I think is that we will loose our house, have to declare bankruptcy, loose our belongings...ect...and have to move away and live with family. I just don't want to deal with that.
We have been happy where we are for awhile now and I just don't want to loose that, but I know the time is coming.
I need a really big box for those memories, fears and anxietys. :-)
Suzy

jordaNZone
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   Posted 11/11/2006 10:48 PM (GMT -6)   
Hmm..a shoebox should do the trick if you compress them all down and throw away a few lol..

You can do it suzy, I know you can..If I can anyone can - believe me!

Maree

hopefulmigrainer
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   Posted 11/11/2006 11:47 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Suzy, do you scrapbook? It might be fun to scrap-book during this time to focus on the good times and the good memories that you have. I think it would at least temporarily take your mind off of the pending doom feelings. Maybe while you're doing it you will recall other times that you went through and see where you landed. I think it really does take a consious effort to change our thinking. Their is a saying "whatever you think the body follows." I know first hand that this is true. So, enjoy your hills because life is a series of hills and valleys. I've been in the valley for much too long and would welcome a hill to stand on. You are going to survive. You always having -- since being a little kid. You are all going to be fine and you have everyone here at HW to help you through. Take care.
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Suzy35
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   Posted 11/12/2006 9:25 AM (GMT -6)   
LOL, I have thought of scrapbooking. I have TONS of pictures of my kids. For me it's the cost, it's seems pretty pricey to get started, so I've been putting it off.
I guess I just have this helpless feeling about alot of things and just don't know what to do. On the whole the meds are kicking in, feel a bit anxious this morning, but it should leave soon.
I want to thank everyone for being so supportive to me through this, it's been such a help.
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