your med is a tricyclic antidepressant, prescribed for many different things at different doses, start with a small dose before bed. all anxiety sufferers do seem more likely than average to have strong reactions to starting antidepressants, but the reaction sadly cant be predicted
some have a fear of swallowing tablets but are OK taking liquid versions or can grind the tablet into a powder and mix with food
I understand fully what it is that you are going through as i have the same problem that you do...I believe that it could be a phobia,in my case i first started being afraid of taking new tablets when i started suffering with panic attacks,anxiety and my doctors where trying me on different medications to see which one would work and i had a couple of allergic reactions to them... So i guess that that is why i fear taking new and different medications to what im used to... My doctor only yesterday gave me a new medication to take and as of yet i havent taken them... Dont think i will either...I suppose all you can do is try to take them and see what happens,i guess that is the only way you will find out if they are going to help or not... I know that this will not help you, i just wanted you to know that you are not alone when it comes to taking new tablets... Fear produces alot of reactions,it is getting past the fear and just doing it anyway...