When you have Panic/Anxiety Disorder, you are also subject to having "psychotic" thoughts. They are crazy, off the wall things that enter your brain, but rationally, you know that they are not real, not things that would happen or that you would actually do. Risperdol is a medication that I have taken when these "psychotic" thoughts become prevalent, even though I know that they are irrational. I have learned to recognize them. Often I get the thought to slice open my wrists to release the blood pressure when I get a bad migraine. I know its just a crazy urge, but I don't actually consider completing the act. It's totally not suicidal or a wish to die, it's more like the thought of opening a pressure value. You might want to check with your doctor to see if this medication would be helpful to you on a trial basis.