Everyone keeps raving on about
how my pdoc is one of the best, I just think what she's doing for me isn't working.
My thoughts keep turning to the things we don't talk about
and I've had doctors tell me this is normal for an anxiety sufferer.
I don't think it's normal for anyone to feel that way and that's what's scaring me so much. I'm home alone most of the time with 3 kids I don't want those thoughts.
I'm getting hubby to take me to hospital shortly, I just need to eat something to take my meds with and arrange a babysitter. Enough is enough. I don't know what the public health system will be like to help all I know is 10 months ago I was on 1 tablet feeling great and had been for a couple of years. 10 months later I'm now on 4 different tablets a day that aren't working, I'm in tears all the time or shaking and sick with anxiety.
I just want to return to 'my normal' this isn't it.
If you don't hear from me for a couple of days I guess that'll mean they've finally decided to do something to help and have admitted me.
Thanks for everyones thoughts, please pray that they'll work out what is going on with me and help fix it.